What desire cannot see (bibleapo)

chapter 23

"Apo, I think you should tell him..."

Apo stared at practically nothing, he looked into the abyss of nothingness. His numb body had nothing to it, nor did his soul make him feel anything or remember even his happy memories that would have an effect to calm him down. He sat at his place, unmoved, unspoken, a lifeless soul trapped in this simulation where suddenly he lost his control. Bas can't afford to see apo in such an state. He missed the noise and the happy howlings for this entire week. Every corner of the house was filled with echoes of dirty moans and high pitched screams that called out for help. Just ever eager he could be, his courage just dropped the beat and the rythm. Temptation played with his senses and he absolutely had lost command over his neurotic functions. He urged to hear more, a little more, the desire to record in the beautiful sounds to an extent he doesn't wish to forget ever again. The guilt to have stood back even when he had the power to barge in and stop the pain he being aware his crush went through. He bit his lips as his eyes moved, travelled to every bit of the dark purple and dirt coloured bruises which decorated apos body in a marvelous presentation. Bas wanted to slap himself, for thinking inhumane thoughts that could push him behind the bars. He isn't a sadist, he is the lovely type to only shoot for an bursting colour of red, seeing the minced pieces of life does churn his stomach to an extent he wouldnt, his every session, of throwing up in a nearby sink at the area of disposal.

The shape of miles dead body was itself traumatizing. He can't believe he could lessen the distance between the him and the deformed body of some he once called handsome and full of authority. But seeing the same well known personality now in a state where there's no room for recognition and the disturbance crossed its limits.

It was his good decision to not let apo witness his beloveds funeral, not even the mourning part in the hospital, which rather seemed useless, but atleast their leader had to get a respective farewell which it does not matter how big of the ceremony it was. The world beneath the legal judgements, got the utter shock which no even the opponent power could think of. The question might now arise if whether the executives of the gang have even thought of further investigating in the case to hold the guilty to the cross. Well, they did, and are still filling numbers of complaints requesting for a thorough check to the both ends of life. Whether there were more pawns that they missed to discard or a lizard who held their personal grudges to which when the time came, they let go of their tail and tamed the cat.

"Get the papers ready, I want him out..."
His broken and soft voice vibrated in the distance. Bas gaze softened when kept on spotting the pain in the boys words. His way of speaking, forming the language, his hardest work in forming the sentence though which he might wish to gain hypnotic control over the listeners understanding. But bas can't escape this. Learning psychology and working as someone to capture every little moments the people associated do which he further studies on. Had has immediately caught up on what apo thought, why did he think, what made him think and why did he accept it. Bas simply nodded, agreeing to the request to which he thinks as well is a good decision. It takes courage when it comes to leaving your best toy and bas is sure this wasn't easy for apo as well. He can't probably and easily let go of bible who was so eager to replace miles role is apos heart...but now, his action itself would speak back to him that using these tactics wouldn't win him anything, apos heart is the most expensive and the toughest challenge one could go through, which bible mistook to be such a procedure where everything is as easy to be done, but not easier enough to touch your reward...

"But I made love to him! Right in my arms...!"
A chill ran down apos spine when this youthful voice danced in the surrounding. Apo clutched on the blanket that covered his naked and swoon legs. He trembled more when he heard clatter of voices which ain't belonged to the only person he doesn't want to meet. Bas turned to face the direction of the noise, which being curious led him to leave apo in search for the source. Being sure of his personal bodygaurd cannot be in the position to return back atleast to this room, apo hurriedly turned to the othrside and tucked himself, sinking his whole body completely into the darkness of the thick material.

"I don't really like to bring anyone in my room, but since you insisted on seeing the love of my life...how could I possibly deny"
The sound of the clicking doorknob sounded and the opening of the door, the darting of the wooden border of the entrance resulted influence to apos body, he curled himself further like a feline, turning to a sphere of being in his personal bubble where he wishes none to invade his safe place. Hearing slight laugh from the other person got apo to literally stop breathing. Being touched by bible itself was a hell of torture and ful of dreadful scenarios, but being touched by another pair of hands, that to which he is not familiar with is more of an horror he could ever imagine.

"P'apo...wake up...see i got my best friend to see you"
Apo did not react. The playfulness in bibles voice suggested that the boy was actually in his good mood which apo really does not wish to ruin it, but he also has no desire of being seen by someone else in a state where his cheeks are swollen from the punches, lips are bleeding from the hard bites, eyes are bruised from being sucked on to leave off the marks of affection and passionate love which involved none of it's fantastice descriptions but all hurtful views and sorrowful stands.

"Hello...I'm Jeff...it's my pleasure to meet you"