What desire cannot see (bibleapo)

chapter 19

"What the hell are you doing!?"

Apo pushed bible hard after he was well aware that he was patient enough to let the man grope his ass, but that doesn't mean he would let him insert anything inside, not even his fingers. Apo looked towards bible with confusion. Seeing the man grow so sticky to him is kind of scary.
"Why are you touching me...my husband just died, you know that right?"

Bible tried to explain something or whatever he wanted to. His hands in the air, wiping off things in the unknown as if drawing a formula with his palm. His fingers tremble while his hands move around, his eyes wide, his view witnessing apo look at him with confusion which also shows the tint of disgust on his face.

Bible went back, the days suddenly when he was being chained shackled and kept locked in that one hell of a room. He suddenly remembered his way of acting towards apo, hating him for being homosexual, and now he is here, hardcore crushing on the same man he wanted to throw up everytime  he looked at. Apo is married, bible is a little aware about that unhealthy relationship according to him, the hurt he is feeling deep in is throbbing. Ofcourse, it's more pathetic to have someone try to get physical with someone who is already commited. His head is hurting and the deep catch in his heart is making him go insane, he places his hand over his chest to stop the intense tearing of his heart. He finally understands how apo felt at that time, when bible treated the boy in the exact same way.

But the case has changed now. Bible is not more homophobic and regarding in his favour, apo is no more married. You can't really call someone married when their spouse is unsure of its own state of the soul, whether they are sitting in heavens or burning in hell. So he wasn't wedded, in fact bible had the entire right to approach the man for he is single and that is the rule. Bible is able to love, then apo is much more allowed to do the same. So he pulled himself back to his straight posture. Bible smiled after his palms brushed off the tears that soaked his cheeks.

Apo smoked another stick of cigerette after already watching bible do his acts to defend himself. He stared at the boy trying to find an answer for the current state of situation. Apo can still feel the traces of caress and the warmth he recieved being close with bible a few seconds back. He slowly moved his hands, trying not no let the later find out. Apo rubbed his palms over to where he felt the touches, he turned his head and moaned slightly. He missed mile like crazy and he wanted to run to him. But where would he go.

"It's hard isn't it?"
Apo frowned again, he stopped his little gestures then returned to look back at bible who watched him puff out a load from the opening end of his lips with the cigerette still in hold.
"What is?..."
Apo replied back, more like asked back. He knew what bible intended to ask. Well it was still better, everything was going to be quite now so the little one can sleep peacefully without any disturbance.
"Mile, you miss him a lot, I can see it...it won't be easy"
Bible spoke with a straight face, but apo caught the worry in his tone. Apo in result wanted to cry, his lips quivered with the stick in. He massaged his forehead after pulling out he cigerette.
"I know bible, but don't worry about me...I will cope up...just, you can go study"
Apo turned the other side and watched the pictures hung on the wall which faced him. He and mile had a lot of pictures, so ofcourse they had many in their room, watching them and smiling like an idiot, was a time pass to apo whenever he felt like doing nothing. He felt shattered all over again, he wanted to scramble anything that he would get to pieces, he wanted to break down everything he saw...he was well aware of the extreme grief which was in turn making him feel guilty and angry on himself. Regrets suddenly started climbing to his ward of thoughts. And the biggest regret is, that he couldnt save mile. Though he was in no position, infact, he himself was miles away from his lover, yet he still blamed his own imcompetence...he couldn't rescue what he treasured.

"Its fine...you have me..."
Bibles palms ran down both of apos arms, to interlocking his fingers with the man. Apo was already crying, tears were dribbling down in loads. Bible sniffed in between the crook of apos neck and peppered soft kisses in the edge. Bible swayed the man before nibbling onto the others ears.
"Please don't do this to me...Bible"
Apo closed his eyes, he wasnt crying anymore, by the pain still remained. His dishevelled self still stood desiring the current warmth to not leave his side, ever.
"Do what..."
After leaving a hickey on apos neck, bible slowly turned the man towards him. Bible kissed apos lips, slowly moving his muscles in a sync, relishing  the delicacy of the it's plumpiness. Bibles hands rested on apos hip, giving light presses at either sides. His lips did not move, it was all bible doing whatever he pleased, he tried to have apo open his mouth for him, but he just couldn't. Bible pulled back to find apos eyes still closed, probably thinking of mile. His fists already were in a tight curl, his teeth already pressing against each other and his tongue clicking. Is it bad if bible would confess that he actually wanted to beat the shit out of apo right now, and the only reason would be because he was dreaming of his dead husband while their makeout session.

Apo slowly opened his eyes, to only find out why everything stopped. He took the cigerette from his mouth and pushed it's butt on the table behind him before throwing it away. He looked at bible.
" Why are you doing this...what do you want..."
Apo questioned back. But before he could say anything more further he was slapped by bible, pulled and shoved to the bed. Apo hissed when he felt the way he was being treated, with roughness. It almost felt like as if mile was angry with him and punishing him.
"What are you doing!"
Apo saw bible pulled out a random belt from the wardrobe and whip it open on the floor before hovering over apo and pulling the laters hair to look back into his hazel eyes.
"Ahhhh stop..ah!"
It hurt, he extremely, completely hurt the man's nerves. His hands tried to stop bible from pulling and keeping them up at the spot which was making him go crazy with this intense pain. Tears oozed out of apos eyes, from the tightening of his eyelids.

"I will tell you this last time! Mile is dead!"
Apo with all his strength got up from his position and pulled bible in further, they exchanged the positions with now apo sitting on the others stomach. Apo punched Bibles left cheek and then the right. He continued punching till blood drew out of the others nose. Bible did not fight back, instead, he took them with happiness, laughing at every puch he recieved.
"Shut up!!! You maniac! Bas!! Job!! Come here!"

Apo screamed, calling out to his bodyguards with the intention of telling them to chain up bible back again and not let him escape the room. But he waited, but no one seemed to have answered his call so he looked back at bible and punched him all over again.
"Where is everyone! What'd you do to them!"
Apos heart was beating like crazy. He found this amusing to hit this boy beneath him, but he also wanted to stop and run from here.
"Ahaha chill, they are all working on disposing miles body..."
Apo frowned, he then sighed and stepped back and started walking out of his room.

Bible stood up from his broken state. He studied his jaw, trying to find any fractures, he was happy to not have any. He bored his eyes to looked straight, at particularly nothing but trying to think about so many moves he could perform next. He knows that this one was a failure, he got carried away from seeing apo off-guard. He feels bad to conclude how he will be so unable to touch apo before he could even get hold of this power that belonged to mile. Everything isn't easy and apo still being worshipping his dead husband wouldn't step back from doing so after just some mere acts of affection. If he wanted apo, there was no other choice but to make apo fall to him.

"And that could be only done when i takeover everything..."