Cross my heart and hope to die

Chapter 6 - Are we still friends?

Nai's Pov

It's been two weeks since I've spoken to Mina. Two whole weeks. We are still not on good terms, and she hasn't even tried to talk to me at all and right now I'm missing my best friend more than anything in this world. The situation with Chapin isn't any better.

We have been fighting with each other more as the days go on and I have been a lot angrier than usual. I'm not liking this version of myself. I have never felt this many emotions in my entire life.

I'm so stressed out with everything, I have to clean up after my dad, Finn, myself and I am exhausted. I shouldn't have to clean up the mess they made like I mean, I'm just a kid.

Why was I stuck with this life while every teenager gets to have fun and do whatever? I never got the chance to experience being a kid because I was stuck having to take care of my dad and having to look out for my brother my entire childhood.

Everyone thinks I have a cool life because I sneak out and I party but that isn't the case at all.

I was in history class, and I completely spaced out the whole time but that was until my science teacher, Mr. Hart said out loud to the class.

' And you will pair up into groups for a project you will have to present to the class by Friday."

Oh, ok a project who could I possibly be assigned to. He started to read the pairs names out loud and then he got to my name.

'Nairobi Modern and Mina Cameron"

WHAT?

I did not expect to be paired up with Mina, Mr. Hart has NEVER paired us up together before but until right now he wants to pair us up right after we stopped talking to each other. I hope he chokes on his water that he is drinking right now.

Maybe this is a good thing? maybe then we can sort out our differences and hopefully this can rekindle our friendship again.

We have start to sit next to our partners, and I sit next to Mina. We look at each other but don't say a word, but then I decided to say something.

'So, um are we going to start?' I said nervously to her.

'Oh, um yeah' she said to me. Okay maybe this will not go as horrible as I thought.

We started to get to work and that was all we did. work. Not a single other thing did we do. Not even a little joke, not even a laugh, not even a smile. Then class was over, and I started to pick up my stuff to follow Mina and try to fix our friendship.

I followed her to her locker, and I saw her starting to talk to chapin. What the fuck. They started talking like as if they have been best friends for years. I hated it more than anything.

I walked up to her and tapped her shoulder gently.

'Hey Mina' She turned around and her smile faded when she turned around.

'Oh, um yeah?'

'Can we talk really quick?' I was silently praying for her to say yes.

'Ohh um ok" Thank you God for making her say yes.

"Ok follow me" I told her and gave Chapin a dirty glare before leading Mina to the bathroom.

I made sure no one was in there before talking to her.

"Mina, I know we had a pretty big fight, and we usually never fight but I just want to tell you I am sorry for everything. I apologize for being a dick and for being a bad friend. I've just been going through a lot right now and I shouldn't have taken it out on you when you didn't deserve it. I just want to know. Do you forgive me? Are we still friends?" I told her teary-eyed hoping and praying silently that she forgives me. That she still continues to be my best friend.

"Listen Nai, I know you have a hard life but that doesn't mean you have the right to take your anger out on me. I have ALWAYS been by your side and taking your side because you were my best friend but the one time, I decide to defend someone else I'm a bad friend? Chapin hasn't even done anything to you, and I simply DON'T understand the rage towards him."

'Do you like him?" I told her out of curiosity because is that the reason she has always defended him since day one?

"OH MY GOD NAI ARE YOU EVEN PAYING ATTENTION WHAT I JUST TOLD YOU?" She screamed at me out of frustration.

'I was but I just want to know, do you like him? is that why you defend him so much?" I said to her calmy, so I don't end up losing my fucking mind.

"NO, I DON'T BECAUSE YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?"

'WHY?" I ended up screaming back at her because i have already lost it. I was waiting for her to say something, but she seemed like she was too afraid to say it.

'Well why?" I told her and nothing ever prepared me for what I was about to hear.

"Because I am... because I don't like guys..." She told me sounding afraid. Afraid as if I wasn't going to accept her for who she was.

'I'm sorry what?' I was still processing what she has told me.

'I like girls Nai, I've been trying to tell you for the longest time, but you never seem to care what I had to say" she told me one more time before eventually leaving the bathroom, leaving me in there with my emotions.

Now I really feel like shit.

The entire day was a blur. I can hardly remember anything. All I remember was getting home after hours of hanging out with some dudes I saw on the streets graffitiing and seeing multiple bottles of beer on the table and my dad passed out on the table as well.

Where the fuck did he get money? and then I realized. My money. I run to my room and try to find the stash of money I was hiding.

I found the money but had realized he stole over 200 dollars from me. I was fuming and started to make my way over to him. He was still passed out on the table so I grabbed an empty beer bottle and smashed it onto the table. He woke up and I started to talk to him

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO WITH MY MONEY?"

"HEY WHO ARE YOU TO-" I didn't even let him finish the sentence before I said

"I AM NAIROBI MODERN THE BITCH WHO HAS PAYED FOR EVERYTHING AND HAS KEPT YOU AND FINN ON YOUR FUCKING FEET AND MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A ROOF OVER YOUR HEAD AND FOOD TO EAT"

"NOW WHO ARE YOU TO SPEND MY FUCKING MONEY ON BEERS?" I told him yelling my ass off

"I AM YOUR FATHER"

"REALLY BECAUSE YOU FOR SURE DONT ACT LIKE ONE"

At this point I saw the rage in his eyes and that's when all hell breaks loose in that moment

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY TRAILER" He starts yelling at me and I look at him in pure shock.

"I SAID GET OUT, LOOK ILL EVEN HELP YOU PACK" He walked to my room and started to pack my stuff and tossed my backpack at me and told me

"GET OUT NOW AND DONT EVER COME BACK" He said to me before pulling me by my hair and dragging me to the door.

Finn at this point has already woken up and started to scream at my dad to let me go. But my dad wouldn't.

We eventually get to the door and my dad throws me out.

"I DONT EVER WANT TO SEE YOU HERE EVER AGAIN DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME?" That was the last thing he said to me before shutting the door on my face.

I was sobbing and was freezing to death and was so confused on where I was going to go. I started to walk to the nearest gas station to buy some snacks with the little money I had. On my way there some car pulled up to my side and said

"Hey sweetheart what are you doing out here?" 'Sweetheart' only one person calls me that..

"Chapin?"