DARE

ACT ONE: Part 8

Della's POV:

I didn't know what to do about Ron. I let him hug me and comfort me after he did that to me. What was I thinking? Lavender literally had her arm around his shoulders.

But at the same time he didn't seem to be enjoying it. And at the same time how do I trust someone that hurt me so badly.

I know I'll never trust Lavender again that's for sure. I don't even know if I will trust Ron the way I did. Probably not. The worst part of this is that I still love him.

I still love him and I hate myself for it.

I didn't know what to do. What to say or what to even think. I didn't even know who to trust. I could still the feeling of the knives in my back.

What do I do with myself. The school year is more than half way over. I'll drown myself in work. Besides I do need to get good grades on the exams. Even though my parent wouldn't care to much as long as I didn't fail.

I had a free period. Usually I go take a walk around the black lake but I didn't today. I went straight to the library, grabbed every book on every of my classes. Even though I didn't need them all, I'd like to be prepared and know what I'm doing.

I began to work. I worked through the stress, the anger, the anxiety and the sadness. My only focus was this DADA book. Which might have been the reason why I didn't hear Ron come in and sit down across from me.

"Della?" I didn't hear him the first time. I was to focused in the book. He waved him hand in front of my face before I saw him.

"Sorry. I didn't see you come in." He chuckled. "I could tell. I thought you were just ignoring me." I rolled my eyes.

"I wouldn't have a reason. Would I?" He knew what I was trying to pick up on. His smile dropped and he leaned forward in his chair. "What's up with you?" He asked.

How could he be so stupid. It's like he forgot everything. He didn't expect me to just forgive him right away and trust him the same, did he? It doesn't matter if I cried into his chest the other day. It doesn't change anything. It shouldn't change anything at all.

"Nothing." I quickly answered. "I know that's a lie. Don't you usually take a walk around the black lake?" I look us from my book. How did he know? "How do you know?" I asked.

He cleared throat and his face flushed as if he'd been caught. "Uhhh I just noticed you walk that way all the time." I hummed in response. "So? Are you gonna tell me what's wrong?" He asked. "It doesn't matter to you, Ron. You've made that very clear."

"Listen. I screwed up, all right. I never once lied to you. I've done a lot of awful things in my life but loving you is different." I felt tears sting my eyes. How could he? How could he just sit there and say that?

"You're in my head. Even when you not suppose to be. It shouldn't be this hard to let go. Giving someone a second chance is like giving them another bullet. Because they missed the first time." I could see the tears in his eyes. I start to feel bad.

Am I taking this to far? Am I being to dramatic? "I'm sorry Ron. I really am. Maybe I'm being to dramatic or rude but I don't know how I can ever trust you again." He stood up and walked over. I was already packing up.

"Then let me prove it to you. This weekend let me take you to Hogsmeade. Please?" I sighed. "Fine Ron. But if you pull anything I'll have your head on a stick." His eyes widen maybe because I wasn't one to threaten someone.

"I understand. And I promise you I won't do anything. Just a couple of butter beers on Saturday."

"Okay Ron."  I hope I won't regret it. Hopefully Lavender won't be about. Although I'm sorry she'll try to get in between our friendship again. Friendship. Yes that's all it was. For now. Maybe if I trust him ever again. Will I ever trust him again.

I guess I'll find out soon.

So sorry it has taken a while. I'm not giving excuses other than I haven't felt like writing but I did tonight.

DONT BE A SILENT READER!!!