suicadal reader and sun and moon [Discontinued]

chapter 2

[Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed last chapter as a gigantic thunderstorm is in our area that could possibly kill us i am making this so uh if i dont make the next parts you know that im dead which will be great!]
[Anyways here you go]

BLEEP BLEEP BLEEEP BLE- you smack your clock on the ground cuasing it to break. Shit you mumble to your self. You feel tired and decide to cut yourself to wake you up you inhale sharply and hiss as the blade makes a new cut. You look at the time its 5: 40 am you have to leave at 5:50 you sigh and get ready not feeling hungry suddenly you hear a large BOOM. As you look outside youses lightning crackle and hard rain you sigh. Well if i die die but i need that money you think getting your bike you leave l8ghtning crackles all around you lock your bike up really quickly and run in: kyle walks up and sai: oh hey! I didn't think you'd be coming in! Well see you later! You gasp and wave to him as he runs off. You slide down into the ballpit which hit your cuts you hiss in pain but suddenly sun raps around you not relizing its you for a minut: HELLO NEW FREIND YOU SHURE ARE EARLY! You wince and he relizes its you. Oh its you. he sais you say back: wow excited to you to sun.  suddenly you worrie: what if he doesn't want to see me what i-  oh sorry i didn't mean it like that sunshine! Im excited to see you! Sun said panicking you luaghed and said: oh nah its fine! I mean you didn't sound like you didn't want to see me like- you cut yourself not wanting to give away your past history. Sun looks at you expently and then asks in what seems like a concerned tone: who? You luagh and say: oh no one! You start walking away about to prepare for the kids but suddenly you feel something grip your shoulder you hiss in pain becuase thats where one of your cuts are you turn around and see sun looking at you very concernd. You ask calmly [even tho internally you were panicking] do you need something sun? Sun looks you deep in the eyes and asks a qestion that shocked you : sunshine..... who? You luagh and pretend as if you don't know what he's talking: i don't know what you're talking about sun! You try walking away but he grips on still and sais: who would be disapionted to see you? You sigh knowing he won't let you leave until you tell him so you tell him: my mom and dad... you ideamtly luagh it off and say but its nothing much! You rush off oreparing something else but sun hugs you... HEY! SUNNN WHAT ARE YOU DOING WE HAVE TO PREPARE BEFORE THE KIDS GET HE- suddenly the monitors anounce: THE PIZZIAPLEX IS NOW CLOSE DO TO SEVERE THUNDERSTORMS. You start panicking.... no no no no no this
Can't happen! I have to go home! And cu- i mean do some stuff! Suddenly sun turns you his way and gets on your level and hugs you saying: hey hey its ok sunshine! You can spend time with me and moon! [Don't worry moon is gentle and isnt hacked] also it gives me time to.... ask and talk to you about some .... important stuff. You flinch hoping he didn't mean your cuts. He suddenly took you by the hand and walks you over to a comfy spot you sit across from him [like in reaching distants] so... you say calmly. Sun figites for a minut takes a breath and asks the qestion: are you hurting yourself?

You inhale sharply hoping you can lie [little do you know he can sense lying] you start luaghing super hard and say: NOW WHY CH NOW WHY WOUOD I DO THAT!?

Maybe becuase you have cuts all over you y/n......

You smile: shit im done for. Uhm what are you talking about!?

Take off your jacket then y/n..... sun sais

Uh no thanks! Im comfy! You reply

Sun looks at you intently and reachess over and takes off your jacket

HEY SUN I-

He looks at all your cuts.

You start panicking but then think of a lie.

Sunshine...

IT WAS MY CAT SHE LIKES TO CLAW ME! You shout shit it wasn't suppose to come out that quickly! You think

Sun comes closer and sais: don't lie..... pleas don't shut me ou- suddenly the lights go out and moon comes out he looks at you confused for a millasecond before hugging you..... it feels.... diffrent? Enough to make you cry but suddenly your brain flashes your last memory of crying:  your crying your face stinging you had gotten a b+ on your test and your mom wasn't satisfied with it and was yelling at you suddenly your dad enters and yells at you for crying about how you need to grow up and stop crying he started beating you up relently while you keep screaming saying sorry but he wouldn't stop you were coughing up blood... suddenly moon starts talking snapping you out of it

Hello starlight~ his voice was calming everything about him was calming to be honest

H-h-hi you reply politly he pulls away looking at you directly in the eyes

Would you like to talk about these cuts y/n? He asks gently
Sighing you tell him everything thats happend the abuse you've endured,your thoughts,and self harm..

He hugs you pulling you into his lap which was surprisling comfy. Rubbing your back. You try your best not to cry moon sensing this said: shhhh its ok to cry starlight i won't judge you~  that was the breaking point you broke down balling your eyes out the shadows laughing at you [ shadows like voices in your head telling you to die ill add a picture that i made showing what its like]

[Sorry its sideways i couldn't turn it the right way anyways enough of that back to the story] ahem the shadows luaghed at you suddenly memories flooded your brain abuse pain slammed thru you. You couldn't breath you were having a panic attack.

Hey hey starlight its ok breath breath~
Moon rubs your back calming you down...

After the panic attack is over you keep saying your sorry repeating it over and over.....

Hey! Y/n its ok! Theres nothing wrong with crying! Its a normal thing to do! Your parents are jerks for not letting you cry! Theres nothing to be sorry about! Moon hugs you more tightly then before [not enough to choke you] he suddenly stands up while still holding you and takes you ober to a bean bag sits on it humming while still holding you... you start feeling more tired moon then sais: i care about you.... goodnight starlight i love you to the moon and back~ you suddenly fall asleep.

[I hope you enjoyed im so sorry these are short don't worry i will continue to make this leave ideas in the comments bc i need them XD anyways have a great day night or apocalypse!]