suicadal reader and sun and moon [Discontinued]

comfort and a funeral

Hey guys! Im going to base this chapter on the day of my moms funeral. I keep forgetting to say that the Art work was done by me XD anways enjoy!]

been a week since your freinds death and you feel emotionally drained
Moon and sun always try making you open up but you always shut down. They don't need to hear my problems they'll just leave me anyways. You think. You sigh, today is your freinds funeral and you should get ready. today the pizziaplex is closed so you should be getting the clothes from shopping right now .... right? Right?

Well i mean you would be if it wasn't for to animatronic that were begging for you to stay or at least let them go with you.

Guys i don't think the manager would like that!

Sun: butttt yyyy/nnnnnnnnnnnn!

Moon: sigh* fine you leave me no choice.

Suddenly moons hand goes up your shirt and starts tickling you.

AHHHHGG STOP MOON SUN STOP I HAVE TO GET ready! You yell as sun joins in. You start trying to run out the door suddenly moon catches you, ARLIGHT ARLIGHT YOU WIN NOW LET ME DOWN I HAVE TO GET CLOTHE FOR THE FUNERAL! You raged. As moon put you down sun looked at you with a tilted head. What is a funeral sunshine? Sun asks confused. You explain what a funeral is to him as a tears trys to escape He looks at you sad and starts hugging you. You feel a tear go down your cheek as moon hugs you to. Sun breaks the silence by saying to let it all out. You start bursting into sobs.
I miss them Sun I MIss f/N ItS MY fAUlt They'Re DEad! You choke out.
Suddenly sun steps back and grabs you face.
Y/f/n, [your full name] it is not your fault listen to me you did nothing wrong there was no way to prevent the car accident and if you don't beleive me i will make you beleive me.
It was shocking to see sun so firm about something you where always use to moon being the firm one. You sniffle and suddenly relize you really need to get ready.

You didn't want to leave the imbrace but you pulled away anyways and ran and got ready.

As you walk back down to the daycare you see your manager you think he'll walk right past you but instead he stops you and starts talking.
Ahhh y/n! I need to talk to you about sun and moon. You nod your head and listen. So the celestail brother were wondering if they could go to the funeral with you is that alright with you? Your manager sorta leans back and puts his hands in his pockets waiting for your feed back. YES i mean of course but isn't that against the rules? You say with a cough.
your mananger chuckles. No its not against the rules what IS against the rules is if a unauthorized person trys taking them or if they don't want go. You nod and he sais oh and im sorry for your loss. You again nod your head mainly cuase you never know how to respond to that. You both start walking away

As you enter the daycare to get the flowers and speach moon and sun come out of their room all snazzy. You give them a compliment and get the stuff needed and you guys went out and got into a car that your grandpa gave to you as inheritance when he passed. Moon puts his hand on your shoulder as you drive, you inhale deep as you get to the church.

As you guys go in you see f/n family members and freinds you and your freind hanged with.

[Timeskip to when everyone is saying their speeches]

As f/n's mom steps down from the place you guys were doing speeches you got up and did yours. After you were done they had the lunch. Sun and moon holded your hands and hugged you. The whole time not one tear was shed you felt so much anger at yourself for not crying. you wanted to die.

[Watch out this next part is has suicidal thoughts]

You could imagine that.... how your dead body would be surrounded by blood. The tool you used to kill yourself or the thing you jumped off of..... you smiled at the thought no more pain. No more suffering. Just blackness. No thoughts. No cares. Just freedom. But another thought clawed its way to you. What about sun and moon? What would happen to them? You quickly shove off all thoughts and forced yourself to eat and talk to people.

[Timeskip to funeral]

As everyone was standing waiting for the ceremony sun and moon, holded you hand and rubbed your back. They lowered your dead freinds body and everyone starts taking a handfull of dirt and placing it in the grave and then put white roses in.

[Timeskip back to the daycare]

You inhale deep as you get back. You walk over to your dresser and get a pare of shorts and t shirt [and possibly a sweatshirt but its up to you]
you walk into the bathroom having a hard time getting your jeans down. Yeah definitely didn't get the right size of jeans. you think as you finnally get them off and slip on the shorts. You turn over to get your clothes but you see a razor on a shelf.... suddenly the voices started talking...

[Suicidal thoughts and almost actions]

Looks like moon didn't see that one

What?

You should end it all you know....

Why should I?

Becuase no one loves you. No one would care if you died.....

What about sun and moon?

You pick up the razor staring at it with wide eyes.

They don't care either..... they just put up with you....
Your selfishness, your annoying voice. Everything about you is disgusting. [That is not true about you reader]

Sigh maybe your right

I AM right

You bring the razor to your forearm about to cut deep. You inhale deeply as you press it in and blood draws.... suddenly you hear footsteps and yeet the razor. You hear suns voice ask if your alright and you respond with Y e ah i i i im fine!

"You don't sound fine", Sun said with a hint of worry in his voice as he walked near the door
Is it ok if i come in y/n?

Yes uh no uh actually yeah wait maybe not i uh-
Your brain couldn't decide whether to tell him to come in or go, suddenly sun asks if you have clothes on.

Yeah i do. Why?

Suddenly sun walks in and looks at you in the eyes and sees the cut and the razor and his eyes widen and runs over and hugs you..... suddenly sun starts talking, y/n...... PLEASE don't do that ....... don't leave us...... we NEED you...... please! He starts crying burying his head in your neck....

You stay silent not knowing what to say as sun crys in your neck. You inhale as you remember what the voices said "they don't care," you step back pushing sun away as a tear falls from your face. "I'm sorry sun..... for everything.....", you say turning to go out the door, suddenly sun grabs your arm with a strength you never knew you had as he pulls you close to his chest.

"Sun"? You say taken aback by his actions.

"Please y/n".... sun sais crying

You sigh and give in

"Sun.... i should probably clean these wounds" you say pulling away from the imbrace and heading to the medical station.

[Hello guys! I would like to state that its been awhile sinse my moms death like back in july was when it happened. So yeah I've gotten back into sun and moon so yeah. Anyways have a great day or night drink water! And eat food!

Sincerly shadow