StoryOfMyLife

TheSameAsBefore

Mmmmm!!!! Nothing new .
When I thought that my old friends will change into good persons but they became worse than before

The last few days I was in the crowd of the exam and I cry all the time and feel that I'm gonna fall down from crying but finally I got a great marks. Then I became happier thab before

What's The important of this happiness without a person who shares this happiness with you.

My cousine the person who I thoughts that she will be the first one come call me and share me in my happiness. She was busy and still busy with her friends. Now, I feel like she is not in the life and she is just a person like any other person who hurt me a big hurt.

And what about this BINGO:
As the others I thought that she know me and my feeling and my personality and I also thought that she will care about me but maybe she cares about the one who listens to her and told me so many words that hurt me and make me cry and at the end of our conversation she told "I DIDN'T THOUGHT THAT YOUR ANSWER WILL BE COLD LIKE THAT" and when I told her that I wont allow to any one to hurt me again or told me words like that coz I'm not COLD . She told me that she didnt mean that I'm COLD but all of that FAKE FAKE FAKE

Now, I live FAKE life. Have FAKE friends. Have a FAKE smile to hide all pains.
The persons who I prefer to know all my pains and they seemed that they are caring on me but then I realize that those were a FAKE feelings toward me and from this time I decided that I wont tell anyone what's my pains and will always smile to make all the people realize that I'm fine not in pain

And about the person that I wrote about in the last chapter maybe this person will be fake in her feelings toward me

What to do? Don't know what to do!
Need a help? Yes need a help but no one beside me to told him/her that I need a help and help me....