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Onika
I swear watching cable tv has to be one of the worst things ever! There's literally nothing to watch on here.
I surf through different channels yet nothing seemed to catch my interest, deciding I'd just leave the tv on the news channel I remembered I had to go grocery shopping.
Currently my fridge is damn near empty, I literally only have a milk carton and bag of peas in there since takeaway is always my go to.
I'll probably just go grocery shopping now and then come back. It's five pm right now and a few of my friends are coming over to my house this night for a little girls get together. Just the usual movies, gossiping and what not.
It'll just be I, Robyn, Kelly, Lauren, Ariana, Michelle and Kelly's friend who I've only met on few occasions. I don't know her personally not even her name but from what I could remember she's pretty as hell. She seemed like interesting company as well but anyways that isn't important right now let me go get changed.
After changing out of my lazy Sunday outfit- as I'd call it - into a much more appropriate lounge wear I put on my slides and got into my baby which was just a Jeep my dad had gotten me for my 24th birthday a few months back.
I went to Target to grab a few things, a lot of snacks, a moderate amount of actual food and a few sodas. I went and picked out a few other items I thought I needed like toiletries paid and was on my merry way.
The drive back to my unnecessarily massive house was quiet as I thought back on my life. I mean I am blessed to be working at one of the biggest law firms in the state, I'm surrounded by a lot of loving friends and family but some how I just can't help but feel like something is missing.
Something essential is just.. not there.
Living in a massive house doesn't even make it any better, nights get extremely lonely at times.
Ever single relationship I've been in leading up to this point in my life I've regretted. There was Safaree- dumbest nigga I ever met. Meek- he was a complete asshole. Kenneth- I don't even wanna talk about that one.
And now it just made me think maybe I was the problem or maybe it was just something I had to change about me. My walls are up big time and my expectations at this point were a bit high. I just don't want nobody breaking my heart anymore. I don't know if I can take anymore of that.
I soon pull up in my driveway noticing Robyn's car already parked there. I mean she is the only other person that knows where I keep my house keys so I won't even be shocked she's already making herself comfortable in MY house.
I just let out a sigh with the shake of my head going to grab my grocery items. It'll probably take me three trips to haul all this shit into my house and I know that big headed chimpanzee ain't gon' help me either.
"Oh hey Nic!" I hear Robyn's voice call out from my living room couch chomping on a pack of cheetos, definitely brought that shit with her as well cause lord knows I ain't have anything edible but toothpaste and sour milk in here before I left.
"You see me struggling with these bags. You gon' help or nah?" I ask already knowing the answer to the question I was asking.
"Mhmm.. lemme think.." She says pausing like she was really thinking about it "nah."
"Asshole." I mumble out knowing she'd hear me.
"Love you!" I just roll my eyes walking into the kitchen just as I hear more voices come from the living room. Lauren and Ariana.
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At least Lauren had offered to help me while the two- five head and leprechaun.. don't come for my height - just chatted it up ignoring my struggle. Michelle arrived soon after joining the pair on my couch.
