IGNORING YOU (JENLISA)

CHAPTER SEVEN

Jennie's Pov

Our graduation is coming just two weeks from now so most of the students were struggling to submit their clearances before the deadline comes. Taehyung and I are both busy too. He's the one preparing for our wedding, he was just asking me some details about where's the reception place or what do I prefer between buffet or catering something like that and etc.

I don't know but I just don't feel excited about it.

Minsan naiisip ko kung tama ba mga naging desisyon ko. I felt lost. Pakiramdam ko may kulang. I'm expecting to feel more for thinking about our upcoming wedding but all I could feel was emptiness.

I was so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't noticed our class for today has already ended.

I was just picking all my things to put it in my bag when I unintentionally glance at Lisa's side. She's quietly picking up her things too. But it felt like she was a different person recently. The Lisa I knew before is a bubbly type, talkative and all smiley. The Lisa I was watching right now is quiet, timid and sad?

She finally looked up and our eyes finally met. And for the first time since I've already been taken, my heart's finally beat erratically.

Just by staring at those doe eyes of hers making me feel butterflies in my stomach. She's staring like I'm the only one she sees. The feeling was totally different when it comes to her. She made me feel something unique, unique dahil sya lang ang nakakapag paramdam sakin ng mga bagay na yon.

I guess we're staring at each other for too long that I didn't noticed someone has already entered the room and that's when she finally broke our staring contest and turn her gaze behind me.

"Hey babe, let's go shall we?" Taehyung said from behind me while I was just keep my gaze on Lisa who turns her gaze back at me.

"Jen?" I blink rapidly of what am I doing and finally turns to look at my boyfriend.

"Uh, yeah I'm done, let's go." I said and simply looked at my peripheral vision to see Lisa still standing there watching us. I don't know why but I felt hurt, I felt hurt for her.

FF>
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Thursday came, two days from now before our graduation day and you could feel exhausted at the same time excited.

Almost two weeks that I noticed how Lisa has been going on and off. I mean she's barely attending classes. Minsan nakikita ko syang lumalabas pasok sa dean's office na may hawak na mga envelope o mga papeles.

I know something was up. But I also knew that I'm not in the position to meddle with her businesses and I don't have the rights either.

Like today, she's absent again. Hindi ko rin sya nakita sa ibang room na subjects nya.

I'm currently here at the library, one of the place that calming my mind when I need to. I still remember when the times that Lisa was still pursuing me. Alam nyang madalas akong nandito kaya kahit wala naman syang kailangan o gagawin dito sa library ay papasok pa rin sya para lang bwisitin ako. She just like teasing me all the time.

Minsan nga nauuna pa sya sakin na pumunta dito at nadadatnan ko na lang syang tulog. I captured that moment using my phone by the way, thinking that maybe I might use it for blackmailing her in the future because her picture was epic like her mouth was agape and her eyes were half closed.

I know that's natural to people to sleep like that but I find it adorable when it comes to her.

I remember on this corner, the most secluded part of the library is my favorite part. When Lisa and I sitting beside at each other even if I was pushing her away that time. She made some little space between us and she said 'sorry' for thinking that she's making me uncomfortable.

So I moved my body closer to her and leaned my head on her shoulder, it feels like home. Her body was tense at first cause I know she was caught off guard at my sudden movement because she's used to being pushed away by me but then it relaxed sooner.

I still remember how she sang for me softly at that very moment.

I still remember when I closed my eyes that time I could feel the back of her hand gently caressing my face. I still remember how much I'm preventing myself to react to her touch. I guess she noticed my little discomfort so she whispered.

"Take a nap my Jen, I will sing a song for you to sleep. Don't worry I won't take pictures without your permission. Just relax okay?" I hummed in response to her.

I still remember the time when we accidentally met at a cafe near at the university.

She knows what coffee I like or what flavor of cake I prefer that I even accused her that she was stalking me. Then she will starting to rambling her words defending herself that she just know me.

Yeah, she knows me. But why I doesn't know myself?

I keep on remembering things na may kinalaman kay Lisa when someone sat across me. Am I imagininig things? Why Lisa is here? Oh idiot this is a public place natural lang na may ibang tao dito bukod sakin. HEHE.

I looked at her and she's just staring and grinning at me weirdly so I raised an eyebrow at her. She just chuckled and it was the most beautiful music I've ever heard.

"Ang sungit mo parin." she said while her chuckling slowly fading.

"Nakakabwisit kapa rin." I said and smiled sarcastically.

"How are you?" she asked seriously smiling at me softly.

"I'm fine." I answered shortly.

She sighed. "I heard from your father that you're actually getting married three months after our graduation."

"Yeah, you heard it right. So what's the matter?" I asked stupidly and saw a hint of pain visible in her eyes.

"Nothing. I-I just want to give this to you." she said as she put down a wallet-sized picture. The first and last picture we had. It was taken at my favorite cafe I mentioned earlier. Yung araw na nakisuyo pa siya sa isa sa mga staff para lang kuhanan kami ng litrato.

Halos mag makaawa pa sya sakin noon magkaroon lang kami ng picture na mag kasama and when I finally agreed I saw how happy she becomes.

Nang humarap ako sa camera ay sya namang pag ihip nya ng pisngi ko dahilan para lumingon ako sa kanya. I wanna smack her face at that moment but when I realized how close our faces, my brain instantly stopped working. "Click"

There the photo of us where our faces are close to each other. What a good timing e?

"Ano namang gagawin ko dito sa litrato na to?" I asked in a harsh way but she shrugged.

"Uh, souvenir I guess?" she said and I was about to say something when a sound of a message ding on her phone and she immediately got up on her seat.

"I need to go. Until we met again Jennie." she smiled softly one last time and left me there feeling an undescribable feeling in her last gaze.
fear.

To be continued..

a/n: oh well. The ending is near.  🤭