Call of Duty One shots

Let me help - SoapGhost

Summary:

Simon tried to help Soap as he was in the middle of an mental breakdown. Without realising Soap hurted Simon, because he don't wanted to accept his help.

Tw
Ptsd

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Worried, Simon kneels down in front of his partner.

Soap is in the throes of an mental breakdown. The mission he had just returned from was too much for him.

"Do you want to talk about it?" asked Simon gently.

Soap shook his head.

"Do you want me to make you something to eat? Or maybe you'd like to cuddle up and watch a movie?" suggested Simon now a little overwhelmed. He didn't quite know what to do. But he know that soap loved to cuddle with him, especially while watching films. Or eating the food Simon cooked for him.

Simon was even more worried when Soap didn't answer him. He gently put his hand on his shoulder.

He was a little startled when Soap slapped his hand away and hissed that he shouldn't touch him.

"Just leave me alone," he said angrily. He wasn't angry at Simon. He was angry with himself, but Simon didn't know that.

Simon opened his mouth but closed it again. He didn't want to upset Soap any more, so he decided to leave.

Soap pulled his legs tightly against his body and began to sob as the door closed.

Exhausted, he pulled himself up after a few minutes before heading for the showers.

He had to sigh as the ice-cold water ran down his skin. His whole body shivered, but he ignored it and just enjoyed it. Soap had always been one to take cold showers. He never understood how Simon could shower hot, it would be far too hot for him.

Oh yes Simon... Soap felt guilt spreading through him. He felt bad when he thought about how Simon flinched as he slapped his hand away. He only wanted to help him, but instead of accepting the help, Soap scared him.

What made it even worse was that Soap knew all about Simon's past and how much it could trigger him if you hit him.

He turned off the water and quickly got ready before going to Ghost's room.

Ghost's look changed immediately when he opened the door and saw him. Through his mask, Soap could not interpret his gaze.

Without saying a word, Ghost let him.

"Ghost. I'm... I'm sorry."

He put a hand on his cheek and looked him in the eye.

"I didn't mean to hurt you."

Soap could see how hard he was struggling to stay Ghost.

"Can I see you please, Simon?"

Ghost nodded. Carefully, as if Soap was afraid to break a piece of glass, he slowly pulled the mask up.

Simon looked away, slightly embarrassed, as tears streamed down his face. Soap took his face in his hand and brushed them away before kissing him on the forehead and then taking him in his arms.

Even though it was completely silent between them, they enjoyed it.  They enjoyed the feeling each other's warmth.

"...I would appreciate it if you cook me something," Soap said hesitantly as the two disengaged.

Soap had to smile a little when he saw how happy Simon was that Soap had accepted his offer to make him some food.

Soap hated accepting help, he felt as if he was showing weakness, as if he had to do it alone. But as he ate and talked with Simon, he realised that this was not the case. Simon made it clear to him that it wasn't showing weakness. It's hard to talk to others about your problems and everything, so it makes you stronger if you dare and overcome your fear of being judged.

In the evening they lay together in Soap's bed and watched a film together, even though Simon had already fallen asleep after half an hour. Soap snuggled up to him more. He realised how lucky he was to have someone like Simon.

He listened to his partner's heartbeat before he slowly fell asleep too.