so yea, it's been an exceedingly long time since i've updated
but don't worry! i will soon. the reason why for the time gap is multifold but it boils down to: i've been sick, i'm moving, and i've been very busy with eveyrthiing that needed to happen in between
sick: i'm fine, jsut turns out that my ongoing medical issues suddenly started being assholes and really draining my energy. but the end is in sight bc i have a surgery scheduled that should deal with the main offender
moving: i'm moving for school! very excited, gonna have my own office and dedicated work space.
other factors: so i've struggled with the direction i'm taking this book. it was planned all along, but i get nervous that maybe its melodramtic its not realistic (lol i know the irony is strong)
but the main thing is that. it's what i started writing omegaverse for. to look at social issues gender issues sexuality issues through a different lens, to look at what queer people experience but in a way that removes a lot of the real world undertones. i want to use this platform to showcase how society affects us and how you don't have to fit the mold to be yourself and happy. juls and ollie are especially important to me bc they are both considered the "effeminate" gay men, who everyone expects to end up with big beefy men. and yet here i am, a trans masc, who is just so enamored and in love with cisfem boys who represent that i don't have to give up feminity to be masculine.
i also what this omegaverse that i ahve to be more than a gender bent heterosexual adventure, which, no shade, but isn't my style. i want my characters to experience things like a heat being a peirod that sucks ass, being uncomfrtable with changes in your body, the struggle of trying to conform to expectations. i want this to be real, raw, and realtable. some of the characters just happen to have built in lube dispensers.
i guess what i'm saying is i'm not going anywhere, i'm doing better, and i am going to keep writing my weird, fun, sometimes dark stories and hopefully make the queers out there feel a bit more seen.
love to all my fans. your comments and kudos make a difference to me, so know that i see you and love you <3
ps: there wont be another chapter update for a bit, i jsut realized that it's been a long time (jk wattpad shamed me by sending me a private message asking me if i was aware that some of my stories are unfinished and haven't been updated. i got fucking shamed by wattpad and not even in the fun way smdh.)
the next chapter will be julian once again arriving at the st clair residence in a flurry lmao
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At First Blush
FantasyOllie is Unconfirmed. He never had had a Heat, never ejaculated, never even felt arousal. This has left him feeling at odds in a world that is so dependent on biological Ranking. So, when his new doctor suggests he visit a Heat Hotel, Ollie jumps at...
