Levels

Chapter 12

Khalil POV

When we pulled up to the house Shemoya hadn't said much. In fact the drive was extra quiet.

When we got to her house I couldn't help but think back to what she went through. She was alone and I was too much of a coward to even think about what I was doing to her.

She walked into the house and went back to her room. I couldn't help but want to explain to her what happened. I followed her into her room and watched her change into some shorts and a tank top.

"Moyà we gotta talk."

She stopped what she was doing and slowly sat down. I couldn't hide it but I didn't know how to tell her.

I sighed and took a seat on the bed next to her.

"Ok, I've been using."

I started to fiddle with her ring finger.

"But I only started because I lost control of everything, I lost you. It gave me some control back. Chyna kept threatening your life and I didn't know what to do. That's where Jennifer/Jessica or whatever her name is came in." I looked at her face trying to read her.

She looked at me. She didn't cry or anything. Her Face was blank for a minute.

"What do you plan on doing now? I keep telling you Khalil I can handle myself. I just want you to talk to me, was that so hard?" She asked.

"Moyà you know I want to be with you. Always have always will but I need to deal with this"-"Khalil when have I ever not been able to take care of myself?"

I just looked at her. I don't think she understands the circumstances, she's carrying my baby.

"I don't want to lose you, especially because of something I did. I don't know what I'd do without you. Your pregnant I don't want anything to happen to you guys."

She looked at me and tears formed in her eyes.

"Khalil I need you. I needed you. Night after night I cried myself to sleep. I couldn't eat or sleep. It was times when I just wanted to hear your voice so I could go on. Or just you telling me it's over for real. I didn't know if I was holding on to memories or lies. Damn it, Khalil I was killing myself for your sake. My child felt everything I felt, everything you put me through." Tears fell down her face. "I love you and we could have gotten through that together but you chose to handle it alone. You did this." by now she was in full on tears. I just held her in my arms as she cried herself to sleep.

I sat in the living room thinking about the things she said. She was right we could have gotten over it together we always did even when we weren't together.

When she woke up we went to my moms. She wanted to see how Moyà was doing and Moyà wanted to snitch to her about what been going on. After sitting down with my mom talking for hours Moyà went upstairs to take a nap.

In the middle of the night I found myself up in the kitchen thinking.

Shortly after my mom was in the kitchen with me. I know she wanted to talk to me I could see it on her face.

"Explain your side." She said pouring herself something to drink.

After telling her everything she just looked at me. She had even cried a little.

"Do you love Shemoyá?"

"Yeah ma, you know I do with all my heart."

"Well I'm going to need you to listen to me and listen closely..... Khalil, you almost killed her." She paused again. "If you leave again you will kill her and my grand baby."