Levels

Chapter Five

My mom winked at me and walked away. I sat with Khalil. I didn't know what to say to him. I just watched as his eyes roamed my body. I know he liked what he saw I practically live my life based on him.

He smiled. "I like your hair and your nails and your toes" he said biting his bottom lip.

I half smiled. "I know you didn't come here to compliment me." I said getting to the point.

"Look Moya I'm sorry about earlier. I"- "Sorry for what I'm not your girlfriend and she is why are you apologizing" I spat interrupting.

"Naw I'm sorry. You didn't deserve that. You deserve better and I won't blame you if you're mad at me." He said knowing I was upset.

I stared at him blankly. I didn't know what to say to him. I just sat and listened to him apologize.

Then his voice softened, he started to twirl his hat as he took a deep breath and looked me in my eyes. He reached for my hand.

"Moya, Chyna's pregnant." He said.

I instantly forgot how to breathe. I took my hands back and began to back up. I slowly walked backwards stumbling over air.

My heart literally shattered. He followed me reaching for my hand and rapping his arms around me. Every time he got me I slipped away. I didn't want to look at him. I kept closing my eyes. This was a dream I couldn't wake up from, it had to be.

"You did what Khalil!?" I asked. I couldn't believe him. Tears rolled down my face.

"Chyna's"- "I can't even get mad. She is your girlfriend. It's my loss." I interrupted wiping tears from my face walking out the front door. I didn't care if it was my house or his I needed to get out. I guess he stayed and explained the situation to my parents because it took me literally 20 minutes to stop hyperventilating before I pulled out the driveway. I wanted to disappear.

Khalil Point Of View*

Months went by and nobody herd from Shamoya. She stopped coming around the squad, calling, texting she just shut everyone out. Not even K'lani heard from her. I would stop by her house almost every other day to ask her mom or dad how she was doing but she barley even talked to them. I was trying to make things work with Chyna but it wasn't cutting it, I didn't want to be with her. Truth is she was right, she wasn't Moya.

I've never lied to Chyna I just don't answer questions when it was about Moya. She knew the run down, everyone did.

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K'lani's parents were on vacation so we were all supposed to be at her house for the weekend. Izayah told me Moya and K'lani were talking and Moya would be there. I wanted to see her she's been avoiding me for months. I didn't think she could stay away from me for so long.

I was walking out of my house when Letoya called me.

"Yo" I answered

"What are you doing tonight, I want to come see you." She said

I already knew what that meant.

"Aren't you going to K'lani's tonight you can see me there."

She laughed. "You know what I mean baby." She said. I hated when she called me that. She plays so innocent. Thank god I put my homie on point this girl was foul.

"Meet me at the trap around 7. I'm chilling with my dame." I lied I didn't want to stay on the phone any longer. I just hung up.

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Shamoya Point Of View*

I've been throwing up every morning like clockwork, after every meal, every drink even if I was hungry and skipped a meal. This felt all too familiar. 8 months ago, I was going through this phase. I prayed it was a different explanation.