Contract Love • Jihoon

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*WARNING: MENTION OF SUICIDE AND DEATH

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The soothing sound of the rain can be heard through the close window. but the only thing she have been focusing on for the past couple of hours is her heartbeat. Fuck that sleep.

The fact that she have been counting just to calm her heart down is bugging her. Why is she so nervous? This is not like their first time sleeping side by side.

She stared straight at the ceiling in silent while accompanied by the light from the side of the bed.

Awkward. It's really insanely awkward.

It felt like her tongue got her back. The day before, she ask him and today he did.

The man next to her seem not to fall asleep again. Should she start a conversation? Or just ignore his existence over there and just sleep?

Both seems like a bad idea.

" Why don't you ask me anything?"

he speak, filling in the silent between them.

For a moment , she could felt a sense of confusion in her head. " about what?"

" Yesterday night.."

his replies answered her question. She close her mouth and just stare at the ceiling that have been fills by their shadow.

"Of course.. I have a lot of questions. In fact, I have so much.. but I just don't want to" Hani blurted out.

Jihoon glance at her before closing his eyes. " Why?"

"Just.. I don't want to.. Every people have their own secret. the secret that they felt like they have to hide from anyone and bring it to the grave.. You have one and .. of course, I have it too.." her lips formed a smile.

At that moment, it felt like it just them talking. Heart to heart. Not as a boss and a worker. And definitely not as a husband and wife. Just them.

" If you felt very hard about anything then you can let me know. I will be there even though I know nothing... You can just take that as another person want to help another person" their eyes met for a split second before Hani changed it directions. her heart definitely cannot handle that short tension.

" Someone died because of me" he blurted out in the middle of nowhere that definitely caught Hani off guard.

She immediately turn her head to the side and Jihoon just ignored her stares and kept going.

" You don't know about this and definitely no others."

" I have an ex fiancé whom I suppose to get married because of our family arrangement"he stop.

"She kill herself in front of me after abusing and harassing me every single day because she want me to remember her for the rest of my life"

She can heard a slow chuckle coming from his lips.

"You want to know what is funny? The fact that, she have been one and the only reason why I can't sleep every night and my nightmares." he's laughing but she know that he try to hide his feelings and acting tough in front of her.

Hani turn her head to the opposite site, and wipe her tears away. Her eyes fills with tears and she can felt rage in her chest.

" She win. and I lose"

She can see his eyes fills disappointment. his expression darken and a few small grain of tears fell down from his precious eyes.