drown XVI
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"you make me feel everything at once when I used to feel nothing at all and now my heart races a thousand beats per minute how come you make me feel this way then you leave me like this"
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3 months later
"calum, don't be stupid, stop,"
"calm down, char, I'm not gonna hurt myself,"
"yes you are why do you think I'm telling you to stop, stupid,"
"because you don't know what you're saying, stupid," he says as he sticks his tongue out at me and I return the gesture.
we're currently at the beach and calum is climbing to the top of this rocky cliff to jump off. stupid, I know, he's being reckless.
"calum you don't have to try and impress me, I'm already your girlfriend," I tease him, hoping it'll get him off.
"ha- ha," he sarcastically laughs and rolls his eyes.
he's gotten pretty far up the rocks and when he's close to the top I think he's going to make it until he steps on a loose rock and his foot slips.
"calum!" I yell as I run forward a little, prepared to catch him with the little strength I have.
he quickly grabs on to the nearest rock on holds on tight, resulting in him steadying himself. and of all the things someone could do after they almost fall off a cliff, he laughs. he fucking laughs the loudest laugh I've ever heard.
"calum you're a dick!" I yell hoping it'll make him feel bad enough to join me back on the sand.
"no I have one!" he yells back with a laugh and I take a seat on the towels we brought, giving up any attempt to save him.
he finally reaches to the top and calls my name and when I look up at him, he waves both his hands as far as they can stretch.
"you don't have to do that, you're not that far away from me!" I yell towards him and he dismisses me with a wave of his hand.
he gets to the edge of the cliff and looks down at the waves pounding against the hard rock. he gives me one last look and I give him one last look of warning before he backs up and takes a running start and dives off the cliff.
I stand up and walk to the edge of the water to try and find him and after a few seconds of him not coming up I start to panic.
"fuck you calum fuck," I say as I start to go deeper into the water, trying my hardest to run as fast as I can through the thick waves.
"no, no, no this can't be happening," I say to myself as the salty water splashes my eye and I quickly rub it to try and see better. I swim to the spot he landed in the water and search around to try and find him.
"shit, oh my god, calum where are you?" I say loudly as I look around the water.
my heart is ramming against my rib cage and I'm fighting back the tears in my eyes and the breath that's caught in my throat.
finally I see him lying in the water and that's when the tears come out of my eyes. he's lying facedown and as I paddle over to him, I flip him over and slap his face softly a few times to get him to respond.
"calum, please, c'mon, baby wake up," I sob and I wrap an arm under him and take him back to shore. I drag him from the water to our towels and I call for a life guard who comes running over with a first aid kit.
"what's happening ma'am?" he asks me as I try and wipe the water off his face.
I try to explain but with the amount of sobs coming out of me it was hard to form any words at all.
"this is getting us no where, I need you to calm down so I can help him" the life guard says and after I take a few deep breaths I'm calm enough to tell him what happened.
"your boyfriends an idiot," he says as he grabs a few items from the red fanny pack on his waist and I can only nod in response.
"call 911 while I do CPR," he orders and I fumble for my phone and call them.
they pick up on the first ring and I tell them our location and the situation.
I glance over to the life guard and calum and see he's not responding to the basic treatment.
"he's not reacting, let's hope the ambulance gets here fast," he says and I break out into more sobs as I think about what could happen.
"pull it together, crying will get us nowhere," the life guard says and when I realize he's completely right, I shut up and grab calum's cold hand in mine.
I hear the sirens and see the red and blue lights come in sight and suddenly everything is a blur. I can't remember them ever putting calum on a stretcher or how we got into the van, me right beside him and a nurse on the other side putting a mask on calum's face and a needle in his arm.
all I remember is the ache my heart felt when I saw his lifeless body before mine and the familiar pain in my chest.
when we got to the hospital they rushed calum's body to the ER and left me to sit in the waiting room in fear. I sat down in the first chair I saw and covered my face with my hands; I could feel the stares.
hour after hour passed by with no news to me at all. I had called calum's mom and joy immediately came to my side. I spent the hours standing up, pacing, harassing the front office desk, sitting back down, standing up and repeating the process again.
after several hours, a doctor came out with a clipboard and asked the desk a question and the lady who sat there pointed at me before the doctor nodded and walked up to me. I stood up when he reached me and waited for what he had to say.
"miss Charadee?" he asks and I nod my head frantically.
"I have some news about your friend Calum Hood,"
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A/N
I'm such a hoe for leaving it off there but omg late update kill me !1!!1.
srsly I'm so sorry idk I haven't had any inspiration and writers block is a bitch !1!
but if you read any of my other stories, know that an update for those will be appearing v v soon,!!!!!
love you all sm whoever still reads this lets go get a milkshake or something tbh
-Lizzy xx
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Drown. // c.t.h.
FanfictionYou don't really need water to feel like you're drowning, do you? •• a sad girl meets a semi-sad boy and suddenly she can't feel the waves that drown her anymore.
