A Whisper

Chapter 4

I wake up on the ground twitching and heavily breathing. I'm going through my steps yet again. First slowing my breathing, as I attempt to take deep breathes. I can't do it. He isn't there. It must not be an attack, because I can't feel his presence. One last deep breath and I see him in the distance, a blurred figure walking in the opposite direction. I hear slow beeps, I wonder if mom has something in the oven. I direct my breathing pattern to mimic the slow beeps. For once, my heart isn't racing; which starts to worry me in fear that it might be giving up. Step two, I try to blink. Finally after a few tries, I blink and get a slight idea of my surroundings. My eyes are only open for a second, but all I see is a white ceiling. I focus my senses. Where am I? All I hear are the slow beeps and some mummers in the background. I feel my body fighting to become conscious. There is a sharp pain in my arm; I no longer have to fight I slip back into unconsciousness. 

            This time when I wake up I can hear my mother whisper, "I called her father and he will be here shortly. I don't know what I'd do without Ann being there. When I first saw her on her library floor I nearly passed out." Where am I? The beeps are faster and I can no longer breathe with them. Again, I try to blink and after a couple tries I can see my mother. She looks at me and says "Oh Serenity, I'm glad you're awake." I smile and ask the question that has been haunting me "Where am I?" But more importantly, where is he? She looks concerned, "Honey, you had a really bad attack. You're in the hospital." Well I know who I have to thank for that near death experience. I wonder why he chose to leave me now, when I was lonely and broken. Serenity, this is all in your head, he is not real. The doctor came back with the results; they say it is due to stress. They send me home telling me I should stay in bed for a week or so.