So here i am
once more again
i don't know if it'll rhyme
but i'm gonna give it a try.
I'll try this new method
that is really not new
but is a way of writing
i adore and feel attached to.
Does that have sense?
i'm doubting my language
since it's not my first one
but it welcomes me with parties.
I do have a lot
to say and to think
but once more again
i can't see how to begin
so i try to be fluent
and try to just keep
and though this helps a lot
i know it's not what i need.
Cause i'm writing bout my frustration
of wanting and not to can,
of feeling under pressure
and not getting reliefed yet.
I'm just turning to english
cause somehow it makes me good
but i'm really not fine
cause i keep hiding what i'm going through.
Today i got surprised
actually just a little ago
i read something that made me realize
my feelings been here since a while ago
and now that's a lot
i'm talking bout years
and though i was just a child
i had so much not letting me breathe.
I'm thinking bout that now
and i don't know how to react;
should i be worried?
or should i let it pass?
I know i'm not scared
but indeed i'm amazed,
this information confirms me
what i've been trying to contain.
I need the help
and i might need it now.
I've already recognized that
but it still freaks me out.
I got a lot in my mind
and i have two persons in me
i think i've always had
but now's different, now i see.
Right now they're okay
i can say we're all friends
but that's cause i'm maturing
and when i'm not sensible i can see.
I've got control
i do the lead
it's just my emotions
that sometimes play with me.
And then there're the memories
the ones that make me sick
i wish i could forget them
if so then i could breathe.
I need the help
and i might need it now
i don't think i'm not normal
but that's actually what freaks me out.
Because i shouldn't be normal
or at least not in that way
after all i'm just human
but i'd want powers, i guess.
I got it all
and i got more;
my life could be perfect
my life could be more.
If i stop retraining
and i let it all go out
i'm not sure how to make that
but it could help me somehow.
So what am i doing?
Why am i here?
Do i need to answer these questions?
Or do they need to answer me?
I'm feeling real comfortable
though i'm not loving it all.
I'm thinking bout switching languages
maybe i do, perhaps i won't.
For now i'll just stop
and i'll read some other stuff
i hope i can get back to this,
it felt nice, a welcome back.
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Rhymes and lies
PoesíaSometimes words speak to me in English, and there's nothing I can do about it but to welcome them and let them be. I don't consider myself a poet nor would I call what I do poetry, but they rhyme, come straight from my soul and help me continue liv...
