Jade's P.O.V
My mind was racing all night long I kept staring at Tori, she looked so beautiful while she slept, they way she was breathing her small snores, she cuddled up to me a lot thorough the night. I actually was able to see her smile again. Like a real genuine smile. I haven't seen that in forever, her genuine smile. She looks so peaceful. Before I know it, the sun comes up, it starts peaking through her window and the light hits her face and her hair. It turns into this beautiful golden brown, it shines in the sun.
I've never seen her look this beautiful before. I don't want to leave this bed. I want us to stay here forever. Just then the door slams open "TORI WHERES MY HAIRBRU-" Trina says storming in but stopping midway through her sentence when she sees me. "What the actual FUCK, what are you doing in my sisters bed." I pause. Idk what to say to her. "I- uhm. I- we were just." "Were you two fucking? OH MY GOD EW" Tori starts to move around with all of Trina's screaming. "Hey, shut up! Tori is trying to sleep, she had a really rough night. I am just here to try and make her feel better now get the fuck out of here, she doesn't have your stupid hairbrush, go look in you're own room dumbass."
Trina scoffs and closes the door, I lay back down and hold her again, jeeze. She needs to stop. I start to drift off into sleep finally, after not being able to sleep for what felt like days I was able to finally get some fucking sleep. My nightmare came back again. The one where Beck murdered my entire family and Tori as well. I jolted awake and screamed trying to catch my breath. That scared the fuck out of Tori.
She woke up and frantically was rubbing my arm her eyes darting all over me. "Jade are you okay?" I look straight ahead shaking desperate for a breath of air. "Jade. Love. Im right here. Look at me." She says softly grabbing my hand with one of hers and forcing my head to look directly into her eyes. "Baby its okay. Im right here I promise. Youre safe. Nobody can hurt you." Her hand is on my neck I lean my forehead onto hers and take a breath. I grip onto her hand tightly.
Trina bursts in again. "What the fuck you two. Keep it down I need my beauty sleep here. I dont care that yall are sleeping together in here but shut up. Not everyone needs to hear that." "Trin we arent sleeping together. She just had a really bad nightmare. Leave her alone or so help me." Yeah. Right. We arent together.
But why do I feel so safe with her then. "I uhm. I gotta go home." I say getting up grabbing my clothes and backpack and walking out the door. "Jade wait." Tori says closely following me and grabbing my arm when I didnt listen to her. "What Vega. I need to go home." "Cant you stay a little bit longer..." She asks sadly. "No. I cant. See you at school Vega." I say coldly walking out of her bedroom the rest of the and eventually out of her house. Fuck, what did I do. I kissed her. That made everything so much more complicated. Im just gonna forget about this entire situation and move on. Maybe Beck will take me back. It might be the only way.
A few months later
Well its the day of the show. Weve all been kicking our asses making sure this show is perfect. I havent really talked to Tori since the night we kissed. Not for her lack of trying I just cant face her anymore. Anyway the show is tonight, Aday moved away so Im now playing Maureens love interest, we didnt really have a choice. I have to kiss her again. I dont know if I can. Every time in rehersal that it came to that scene I played it off like I was sick. I still have her ACDC shirt in my house. It stays in my bed, it still smells like her and it brings me comfort. Fucking kill me now.
"Alright guys t minus 5 until show time get ready everyone!" Shit shit shit. I feel a small tap on my shoulder, turning around I see Tori in her maureen outfit. She looks beautiful. "Break a leg." She says and smiles. "Oh you too." I say and walk off the stage waiting for my que and the show to start. The curtain raises and the show starts. About halfway through its Tori and my song closely followed by our last kiss. We sing the song flawlessly then it comes to the kiss. We stand in front of each other. Im supposed to make the first move but I freeze, my hands start shaking again and I have a hard time breathing.
I feel a hand reach onto mine and I look at Tori. Shes holding my hand and smiling. :I got you babe.: She mouths and leans in to kiss me. I kiss back and it felt the exact same way it did that night. I didnt want it to end. But the show had to go on so we both walk off opposite ends of the stage.
I calm down and Tori comes over to me. "Nice job out there." She says and smiles. "Y... you as well." I say and walk away, idk why I cant fucking talk to her. Im freaking out again. The show ends later and we all do our bows, Tori right by my side takes my hand for no reason and just smiles at me after the curtain closes. Why cant I talk to her anymore. Why am I freaking out over nothing. Fuck me man.
"Jade can we talk in private?" Tori says sheepishly. I nod and she drags me to the janitors closet. We close and lock the door, I go and sit in a corner. Tori stands and take a big breath. "Did I do something wrong?" I can hear the hurt in her voice and it crushes me. "N-no why would you think that?" "Oh I dont fucking know youve been avoiding me like I was the black plague. That hurts Jade. Ive been feeling like im going crazy. I didnt do anything and yet here you are fucking shutting me out. AGAIN. Why? Was it because we kissed. Cuz if thats the reason we wont have to anymore. Im sorry if I did anything to betray your trust. Because It sucks that you wont talk to me anymore Jade. I really really like you and you shutting me out is hurting me and I dont like it." "Are you done yet?" I say. "Wow, really. Do I really mean that little to you. YOU kissed ME Jade. Not the other way around." "I didnt mean it like that Vega." I say putting my knees up to my chest and gripping my legs extremly tightly."
"Then pray do tell me how you meant it." "I want to tell you, I want to talk to you. Its just hard... I uhm. im scared of getting hurt." Tori walks closer to me. "So hurting me is the next option. I like you Jade. I like LIKE like you. Like a lot." She sits next to me. "I was so happy that you kissed me, ive been wanting to since you poured that coffee on my head." "Really? But I was so mean to you." "Yeah I know, but regardless I knew I was gonna get you to break down youre walls eventually. I knew we were meant to be friends. I just couldnt help that I have feelings for you Jade. Im scared to. Im putting myself out there and thats not easy."
"I know... Im sorry. I just freaked out that you were gonna wake up and regret that." "I could never Jade. I want to be with you. Not anyone else. You." She looks at me. I put my hand on hers and look at her. "Then we take things slow. We arent girlfriends but we can go on dates and be talking then. W..would that work." "As long as youre mine, im okay with anything." We kiss again and I feel a lot better. "So lets go get some ice cream and you can come spend the night at my house if you want. Nobody will be home so itll just be us."
"Sounds good to me my love."
