You're In My Head

The party

"WAIT WHAT?" Julie replied the look on her face was priceless her eyebrows were downtrodden and her eyes glared at me with confusion while having a smile on her face." yea he's all I usually think about, I'm sure like him", "Julie you have to at least mutter a word" I stated "I'm happy for you I just don't want him to turn out to be a dick and you get heartbroken. He's the biggest player in the school"  she paused "I don't want it to be like when your dad left... " she backed "I understand, I'll be careful, I promise and if he breaks my heart then you can just rip off his head or something!" I said laughing "ok then common let's head to your place and get ready," she said eagerly I followed her as the bell rang we ran to the bus my Converse hopping on the first step then the other and finally walking down the aisle of the old, crowded, bus my brother following behind... We sat in the very back designated for the high schoolers my brother of course begging to sit next to his little crush Julie "No Ethan!" I said in a stern voice he plopped down in the seat next to us pouting I rolled my eyes, turned, and looked at Julie as she softly put her AirPods in glancing up and smiling at me, I smiled back turning my head to look out an empty seat window I could feel the gaze over my shoulder as my brother stared at Julie "stop, your drooling" I said, turning to face my brother "yea, yea, anyways are you going to masons party tonight?" He asked "Yes actually" I paused "Are you?" I said sarcastically "Of course, masons 1 of my best friends why wouldn't I?" He replied I turned my head away to look out the window once more thinking I was getting ready to go to a party not even knowing the address then it hit me that Julie and I could follow Ethan to the party. Feeling a sense of relief I slumped back in my seat re-thinking that whole invitation situation... the whole time he was talking all I could look at were his lips, glancing at his eyes once in a while I couldn't help but admire his beautiful ocean eyes, feeling like I could fall in those deep pools the world calls eyes... *SLAM!* my eyes quickly shifted to the front of the bus. It was our stop, grabbing Julie's arm I pulled her out of the set while walking down the aisle I could feel eyes on us or maybe it was just my anxiety but I didn't care my thoughts shifted to him the thought of his gorgeous blue eyes seemed to calm me. I hopped off the bus smiling with Julie by my side "Julie common hurry up we gotta get ready!" I shouted she quickly went into the house on our way up to my room my mom stopped us "Hey girls how was school?" "Good" we both replied "Julie are you staying the night?" My mom asked "yea my dad is cool with it" she replied I pushed on Julie's back slightly making her go forward up the stairs she bolted up to my room as I followed behind I stepped into my room and shut the door I glanced at her as she smiled and tapped her phone and her playlist started playing we both rushed to my closet. She glided her fingers across my clothes she grabbed my blue sparkly dress "Can I borrow this?" She asked smiling "Yes of course" I replied. She took off her shirt and plopped down on my bed as I slipped on my black dress it was tight fighting with string on the sides leaving skin exposed, I slowly pulled the strings tightening the dress and forcing it to fit my curves quickly I turned to Julie "what do you think?" I asked eagerly "Amazing" she replied she jumped up and walked into my closet taking off her shorts and letting down her hair as she was slipping on the dress I quickly turned and looked in the mirror staring at my brunette hair and dark umber eyes "what do you think Angelina?" She asked I spun around quickly "Gorgeous absolutely gorgeous," I said "Thanks" she replied there was something about Julie I couldn't seem to place but she had always been so perfect the way her hair fell around her face, the way her body was just right, how she Looked good in every color, and most importantly how she was so confident and happy... oh no there's that feeling again that feeling you get when something bad happens, your stomach drops and your eyes start to burn and you feel like you wanna rip all your skin off and smash your brains across the room I started to tear up I quickly wiped my tears, "I'll be right back I gotta pee" I said "ok girl I'll just do my makeup" she replied I smiled to her then turned around and started crying I entered the bathroom and locked the door I sat on the toilet sniffling I got up and opened the cupboard above the sink I lifted up an old bottle of aspirin and grabbed the blade under it walking back to the toilet I pulled down my shorts crying more I took the blade and drug it across my thigh 1 time, 2 times, 3times then 4 and I just couldn't stop. The blood and the burning pain seemed to calm me for some reason pain in the body takes away pain in the head... I pulled on shorts and stepped in front of the mirror adjusting my shorts and my dress to cover it I wiped my tears and walked out like nothing bad had even happened, sniffling as I walked back into the bedroom I scooted next to Julie, staring in the mirror I grabbed my brushes and got to work for some odd reason I've always felt like an artist when I'm putting on makeup using brushes to put beautiful colors on my blank canvas of a face shaping it into something new and pretty I glanced over at Julie "ready?" She asked "Yes!" I replied hold on I have to go ask Ethan. I walked down the hallway with my heels on "Ethan if you're ready let's go to the party" I asked opening his door, not surprised at all that he was smoking "Hey what the fuck" he said "You ready for the party?" I asked in a loud tone "Oh shit yeah I am" he replied "k let's go" I said as I turned around "Hey Julie common, grab my bag please", "ok!" She shouted from my room and then quickly ran next to me. Awe followed my brother down the stairs and out the window I hopped on the ground and slipped on my heels "Come on" he said "follow me" As I stepped forward I glanced behind my shoulder checking for Julie she was walking while looking at her phone, I stopped and grabbed her hand pulling her forward I love her but she loves to get distracted. while following my brother you know as stupid as my brother is he's still my brother "Here we are" he blurted as I glanced up I saw a huge White House, it was on the rich side of town, it was 2 story with gray trim it also had a beautiful black roof with a huge balcony right in the front and there were so many windows the light from inside displayed across the front yard "woah" I blurted "yeah sure", "look I'm gonna go find my friends you guys do whatever" Ethan said
I glanced at Julie still looking stunning "Wanna go get drinks?" I asked "Yeah sure" she replied I walked forward up the steps into the house as I stepped foot in the front entrance I saw people dancing and laughing with drinks in their hands while there was blasting music I went over to the kitchen dodging people as I went still holding on to Julie's hand I grabbed the red cups and set them down and poured Jack Daniels and coke and mixed them I had drank before but not at a party, I grabbed the drinks and spun around but instead of looking at Julie I was facing Mason "hey, you made it!" He said "yea I did, but parties aren't my thing" I replied smiling the corner of his mouth twisted into a smirk "Then what is your thing?" he inquired "We'll I get nervous around a lot of people so usually I just sit alone in my room or hang out with my best friend occasionally my older brother" I stated "Oh, well then let's go somewhere a little calmer," he said grabbing the drinks out of my hand "oh, wait those were for-me and m-my Friend" I sighed knowing he couldn't hear me over the loud music and people I followed him threw the crowd of people and up the stairs, my balance shifted and I started to fall back "ah" I shouted softly trying not to draw attention he grabbed my arm and caught me "be careful these stairs are steep," he said he went further up the stairs still holding onto my arm. I barely knew this boy but for some reason, I trusted him I felt like he could be trusted with any secrets of mine he could be a murderer or just a really bad guy in general, and yet I trusted him enough to follow him up the stairs to a room no less, the creek of the door opening caught my attention I willingly stepped forward the room smelt like vanilla and coconut with a hint of cologne the room was a little messy with clothes on the closet floor and messy bed but what caught my eye were the street signs on the walls and ceiling the beautiful and creative drawings on his nightstand "did you draw these yourself ?" I asked "What?, oh yeah I did," he said turning towards me I sat down on the bed looking around as he approached me his hair perfectly fell framing his face his deep ocean blue eyes glared at me as he got closer to my face I could feel his breath on my cheek it's happening he's gonna- "sorry I'm just grabbing this" he muttered holding eye contact then from behind me he pulls out a bottle of vodka, shaking It while grinning he knew what he was doing I could tell, this little way of flirting he did seemed to affect me butterflies exploded in my stomach and the corners of my mouth started to twist into a smile, my heart seemed too crawl out of my chest and fall to my feet my emotions we're almost so heavy I could touch them as if they were physically there... "you want some?" He asked "Huh" I muttered I looked his way he was pouring the vodka out into one of the red shot cups, I slowly glanced up at his eyes he had his eyebrows raised implying that the question still stood "yea sure I already had a drink though" I replied softly "Oh yeah I left them on the counter downstairs Jack and Coke is not good, trust me this stuff is better" he replied handing me the cup, his sleeves were rolled up he was wearing a black button up revealing his strong forearms, his veins were revealed through his skin the tight little string black bracelet wrapped around his wrist made him look even more handsome he also had deep blue jeans and a black leather belt weaved between his belt loops he looked very formal for a high school party his soft deep blue eyes glanced at me I slowly reached my hand out grabbing the cup as I went to grab the rim of the cup my hand grazed over his hand I grabbed the cup quickly trying to ignore the spark I felt when I touched his skin I put the cup up to my lips inhaling the scent of the blue raspberry in the vodka I quickly drank it the taste of vodka still lingered on my tongue afterward. He was right it was strong I quickly shook my head while opening my eyes broad as the buzz hit me quickly. He started laughing I smiled back at him "A few more?" I asked smiling still he giggled handing me 3 more shots he had already poured I tilted my head back and drank them quickly once more the buzz hit me but harder. I laughed and put the stack of cups on the dresser still giggling from our conversation I opened my eyes and accidentally glanced at his I fell deeply in love with his watery blue eyes as I stared profusely into his eyes he stared back at mine and neither one of us broke eye contact, they say eyes are the window to the soul, maybe they are not so wrong...

Hey guys hope you enjoying I apologize for the long period I took writing this it was a struggle but as promised there will be a chapter 3.