You're In My Head

Valerie

Let me give you a little backstory on Valerie, she was Julie's childhood best friend besides me. Valerie's dad owned the company Julie's father worked at. Valerie is the most popular girl in our grade she was voted prom queen twice and on top of that she's the captain of the soccer team, she's everything every girl wants to be and more without even trying. The worst aspect of it is she was walking arm-in-arm with Mason.

I couldn't breathe I felt like a huge lump came up in my throat I couldn't speak. So I did what comes naturally, I walked away, quickly went into the bathroom, and slammed the stall door I sat down and buried my face in my hands I began to cry and it felt like everything around me was growing closer and suffocating me in the process.

Meanwhile, I heard Julie screaming at Mason in the hallway "You piece of shit I can't believe your screwing plastic do better" Julie screamed then I heard the bathroom door fly open "Angelina where are you?" Julie shouted I heard anger in her voice "In here" I shouted back my voice trembling in the process my stall door opened and she rushed in hugging me "I'm so sorry you had to see that girly" Julie said "It-its fine" I said wheezing "no its clearly not, your clearly not I know you really liked him how about you go back home sleep this off and if your mom asks just say you got sick" she spoke softly wiping away my tears this is why I love her she takes care of me like no one else ever did everyone seemed to try but they never seemed to truly help. I stood up and hugged her once more "Alright" agreeing with her I walked out of the stall and stopped in front of the mirror to fix my mascara I slipped my backpack off and set it on the counter. I pulled my phone out of my front pocket in my backpack "Mason where are you" I texted "A/B hallway why?" he responded "ok, stay there I need to come talk to you for a second" I slipped my phone into my pocket and put my backpack back on, I fixed my hair up into a bun and slipped my Airpods in.

Through all of the bullshit in my life, only 2 things have truly kept me sane my best friend and music but no one seems to like my music taste besides my brother. I started listening to my favorite song as I walked out of the bathroom, and down the hall where my brother was "Hey what's wrong?" he questioned with a gentle voice as I approached him "Mason." I said tearing up again as his name spilled from my lips "I noticed my brother's face furrow with rage "Did he hurt you?" he grunted "Not physically.." I stuttered "I'm gonna kill him," he said fueled by rage "What no," I said tears dripping down my face I knew my brother meant well and was just trying to protect me but the look he had on his face told me that what he planned on doing to Mason did not seem pleasant "wait" I uttered in fear for mason while following him quickly as he stomped ambitiously away from me.

I followed him out of A/B into the C/D hallway that's where he searched for masons class that's when the second-period bell rang and out of Mr. Williams's English class came Mason with a flock of girls behind him "Mason over here" my brother shouted across the hall mason approached us "hey, what's up" he said calmly he was still and unbothered, he would not let anyone or anything getting in his way of getting what he wanted, he claimed whatever he wanted like he was it's original owner, like a king and I found it so hot.

"You hurt my sister, dick!" My brother shouted and there it was everyone's faces dropped everyone saw two idiotic boys arguing about me ik what everyone was thinking "She's such an attention seeker" or "She's being so dramatic" but my brother still proceeded "your such a piece of shit no wonder your mother left" my brother screamed at Mason. Mason was in-raged he dropped his books and balled up his fists "You watch your goddamn mouth" Mason grunted looking at no one but my brother "Oh what you're so big and bad now but wait until you can't find love then that's when we see Mr. Bradbuy's pathetic side Mason raised his fist and punched my brother in the nose his nose started bleeding and then he began to chuckle he punched Mason in the face Mason let go 1, 2, 3 , 4 and many more punches my brother received no matter how much I tried to put a stop to there fighting hopeing to save my brother from the true harm Mason could dothe more I spoke the more my voice was silent after they were both covered in each others blood the school cops came and pulled them off of each other they weren't sent in police cars and I was sent home for having a part in it.

My brother did not get home till later that night he had a concussion and a black eye but he was gonna be alright he was grounded for a week only because he got into a fight my mother still adored him for having my back. I fell asleep that night crying that night how is Mason? Why do I hate him so much and yet still find love in my soul for him? Am i good enough? Did I screw it all up? Will he come back to me?. The next few days we dark and muted, and yet I found comfort in it Mason was leaving my mind more and more frequently I felt like I could maybe be ok again.