You're In My Head

Interrogation

"What were you doing in there?" my brother asked with a scolding look on his face "Don't look at me like that, I was touching up my makeup" I responded "Mhm" Julie mumbled with a sour look on her face I knew that look I've seen it before "what is this, an interrogation?" "let's party!" I exclaimed I walked forward between them ignoring their looks they knew I was up to something but they did not know what I glanced over at my brother only to find that he had a disappointed look on his face "What?" I asked, slowly walking down the stairs "Mason is really bad news, Angelina, he's dangerous" My brother said in a very almost concerned voice "What do you mean dangerous?" I asked worried  "All I'm saying is stay away from him please" he begged "Fine," I said rolling my eyes

Why did I have to stay away from Mason he was amazing and I trusted him, Dangerous. How could he be? He was so gentle and I felt surprisingly safe with him he was the opposite of dangerous I told him about my father if he was dangerous what could he do? What could he say?

I started to panic thoughts rushed through my head I told him about my dad what if he told his friends? What does he tells the whole school? I was so scared and then I started shaking no no not now not a panic attack I turned to my brother can we go home "What no!" He said and then he looked at me I could tell he knew he was the only one that knew he always does "Y-yeah sure" he said looking me in my eyes I hated that he knew because I hated making everything about me my brother had his own problems too and I hate that I can't always help him. We walked down the stairs where Julie was waiting she saw my face "What's wrong?" She asked angered as if someone hurt me "I'll tell when we get home" I replied not wanting to bring it up just in case someone could hear.

I quickly went down the steps completely focused on my thoughts. One stuck out most of all what if he tells the whole school about my dad? I was so terrified if the whole school found out I would be severely bullied, to be honest, and so would Ethan. I couldn't handle it I paused I was on the porch I had no idea how I got there when I'm panicking I'm in my brain, wherever I am, I'm not there. I had no idea how I got on the porch- "Angelina!" I heard my brother's voice shout from behind I felt a hand gently touch my shoulder I turned around expecting my brother but no it was Mason! I was still shaking and my eyes were glistening with tears I was happy to see him but sad and scared at the same time flooded with emotions I couldn't speak.

"Angel, are you alright?" He asked me glancing me up and down I've never seen him worried before Ethan said he was dangerous but I didn't see it. His hand on my shoulder comforted me "I-I'm fine" I told him wiping my eyes
"no your not-" my brother interrupted him "What are you doing with my sister?" He asked angered "Ethan, this is your sister?" He said confused "Yes she is, stay the fuck away from her" my brother shouted pulling me away from Mason I had no idea why he was being so mean to his best friend even though they haven't been best friends for long it was still odd "Angelina!" Julie shouted hugging me tightly I had no idea why everyone was saying my name I was still shaking and my face was burning from holding in my tears "Let's go home" Julie said pulling me down the porch steps "Yeah, let's go" Ethan said still staring down mason.

Mason looked sad as I glanced back at him walking away I had never seen him sad before but I knew I didn't like it I turned to Julie trying not to see him sad, he was a playboy why was he sad over me?

Julie opened the door Ethan was standing in the grass smoking a cigarette and I was still focused on my thoughts. The door creaked as it gently closed behind us I passed Julie, up the stairs and to my room I threw my heels on the floor and threw myself on the mattress. I heard a gentle knock on my door "Come in" I groaned "Hey" Julie whispered "Hi" I grumbled with my face buried in pillows "Okwhat's wrong? You were fine at the party well until you disappeared" she asked "I uncovered my head and turned around lying flat on my back "I did something but you have to promise not to tell ethan" I said sitting up staring her in the eyes "I won't I promise were best friends I'm not going to tell your stupid brother" she said smiling "ok well I um-" I paused scared to tell her "I slept with mason" I blurted trying to get it over with it was like a bandaid was being ripped off my heart.