What I Wished For

Chapter 17 - Thank Fuck

Anastasia

26th of September 2021

I feel depressed, everything is horrible, everything is numb, I hate this world. It's been a week since we broke up and I can't deal with this anymore, I haven't slept and I've barely been surviving. It's a Saturday night and I'm trying to concentrate on my homework but all I can do is replay what happened last week in my head. Then I get a call, it's Vachi. Through the phone she blurts out, "What the fuck did you do to my brother!?" 

"I did nothing to your brother, he did it to me," I tell her angrily. 

"Then why has he had a fucking panic attack every night since you broke up!?' she questions, angrily. 

I'm silent for a second, then I stutter, "W-what?"

"You broke my brother, what did you do?" she demands.

"He fucking cheated on me, I did nothing!" I yell. Now she the one who goes silent for a moment, then she informs me, "There's no way, he's totally fucking in love with you. He keeps crying your name at night. And he has a fucking panic attack at least once a day if not more."

I go silent again then tell her, "I'm coming over." 

"Don't hurt him more please," she tells me.

"I'll listen to him, I promise," I respond. Walking over to his house I can't stop thinking about how horrible I feel, for myself and for him, maybe he was telling the truth.

Vaishant

Vachi walks into my room, I am sitting on the floor, my back leaning against the bed. She tells me, "Get yourself together, Anna's coming." 

I look up at her, "Are you serious?"

"Yes, you're welcome," responds enthusiastically. I stay seated on my floor and she walks out of my room to go open the door.

Anastasia

Vachi opens the door for me and tells me, "He's in his room." Nodding at her, I walk into he house and take my shoes off to walk up the three flights of stairs, stepping right over the place Vaishant and Aanshi were standing. When I get to his room I know lightly on his door and he tells me I can come in. Walking in, I see him slumped on the floor in his pyjama pants, his face in his hands. I walk over to him and drop to my knees next to him, I lift his arms up and around my neck, straddling his lap. Pulling me closer he kisses my temple. "I've missed you," he whispers, "I couldn't sleep or eat or do anything without you, love." 

"I've missed you too,"I whisper back, "now tell me what happened with Aanshi. I pull away from him to look at him. "No," he says pulling me back to him, "you have to stay here."

"Ok," I laugh lightly.

"I opened the door to her, and she walked past me. I asked her why she was there but she didn't answer, I walked up the hall stairs and stood in front of her and she grabbed my face and kissed me. I definitely did not kiss her back and I put my hands on the front of her hips, trying to push her away, she only grabbed me tighter. Then when I heard the key in the door, I knew it was you, I shoved her as hard as I could and ran after you, she fell on the floor, but I guess you didn't see that. You know the rest," he explained. 

As he speaks I kiss his neck, then pull his head down to my chest and kiss his temple, I hold him there and tell him I love him between kisses. He holds me super close and kisses my chest and shoulder. "I love you," he whispers, once I finally stop. 

He pulls his head back to mine and whispers again, "You should get some sleep, love." He stands up and pulls me up to his bed. We lie down next to each other and both manage to get some sleep for the first time in a week, we sleep all day and lie in each others arm. 

Lying in his arms, I kiss him and touch him and tell him I love him for the whole day. He holds me and kisses me and I finally feel loved for the first time in a week. I feel happy for the first time in a week. I feel rested for the first time in a week.