Everything's gonna be okay

Negan Brimth

After finishing all our purchases , I drove Carol to her house and headed to mine exhausted and just wanted to lay in my bed . When 9pm finally hit , I got up and started preparing myself for dinner .
- Why do I have to do this - I announced to Carol in my phone.

- It's just a dinner Lyd ,it's okay , relax, ,  but are you doing all of this because he didn't tell you he knew your father , maybe he didn't get the chance to - She answered .

- No nothing is okay, I don't want to talk to him or see him , he lied and it's not even the first time he does , I'm being part of this dinner just because I don't want my parents to notice anything - I babbled.

- Well , maybe if you give him a chance to explain himself , everything will be fixed , you'll find a way Lyd,  I trust you , I gotta go now , take care and go fix things up with him , MUAH -  Carol replied declining our phone call.

Walking out of my room , I saw him , we saw each other , I closed the door behind me and didn't say a word but went downstairs and sat in the dinner table until he joined us he took longer than I thought cause we literally got out of our rooms at the same time , anyway, why do I care , after finishing our dinner , we had a little talk then I excused them to go to my room  on the pretext that I had a headache but in fact I just couldn't stand him looking at me every fucking second with that look of his , every time he does that I get the urge to kiss him harder than I ever did .
After going upstairs, I walked through the hall before I was forcefully pushed against the wall next to my room .

- I'm tired - Negan's voice cracked

I stood there in shock , not knowing what to say.

- I'm tired of you ignoring me . I'm tired of you treating me like I'm not even here -

He brushed my cheek with his thumb - Treat me like you treat the others - he speaks making me grow confused.

I asked him , - You want me to treat you like my friend? - He chuckled and shake his head.

- More than that . Teat me like I'm yours.

The tension between us in that moment was incredible , I couldn't pronounce a word but just looked at him approached my lips to his then whispered in his ears - Go away -

I didn't look back at his face but headed to my room cause I knew if I did it would've made me weak , I wouldn't let that happen to me , not now . He wants us to be more than friends but we can't if he keeps lying to me I just need him to tell me truth about him and who he really is , I need to find answers to all of my questions even if he's not gonna be the one answering them.
After taking off my clothes and wearing my pyjama I took my laptop and my cosy blanket and laid on a couch in my balcony , watched a movie , took a look at a novel and fell asleep in the same spot .

Bzzt..Bzzt..[the sound of the alarm buzzing]

- Ugh - I mumbled - what time is it ? I am so sleepy but I gotta get up for my morning run .

I took a shower so fast , wore my leggings and a top , took my bottle of water and put on my AirPods , and left the house . The sun didn't shine yet so it was still  dark outside but I was focused on my run . After approximately 30 minutes of running the sun finally shined so I went to a coffee shop and enjoyed my coffee and a croissant with a view to the sea , the air was so pure and refreshing but I couldn't help thinking about how does my father know Negan , he even knows him when he was still a child , I won't gonna ask them , I have two things to do now , go search in my fathers office and in Negan's house , I don't know how I'm gonna be able to do it but those are the only solutions I have.
I took my phone and sent a message to Negan  : Can I come over to yours , we need to talk ?
Meanwhile, I couldn't wait for him to answer , I went back home , took a quick shower and changed to go to my fathers office I mean sneaking out to it , I knew it was dangerous but It was the only option left for me to take.
I didn't get time to check my phone and see if Negan answered to my message , just got off of my car and entered the main entrance of the giant  building where my dad's office was , I luckily didn't face any problems cause they knew who I was , but I know It's gonna be hard to get into his office cause I'm not allowed to if he's not there .
Walking in front of the door of his office, one guard was standing in there , I just walked in till his hand stopped me ..

- Sorry , miss Corleone , but I can't let you in , without your dad's according - he pronounced

- Uh , didn't he told you , he sent me to grab something , and you're literally  waisting my time with those silly questions , I'm not a stranger - I gasped removing his hand from mine and entered the room.

I took a deep breath , and started looking for something that maybe can help me find what I'm looking for..

- Fuck...there's nothing in this stupid room - I yelled nervously - my father can be here in any minute , I'll take a last look and then leave. -

After a while of looking in a rooftop I found some strange papers with pictures of people with a red X on them but didn't really get what was it for , I searched and searched till I suddenly found a paper with my picture on it between my hands but it wasn't like the others ,there was no X on my picture, I was too stunned to speak , and I couldn't even read what was written, there was a lot of words,  the only thing I did distinguish is | Mission for Negan Brimth by Mr Carlos Corleone | , | Failed killing attempt | , |No award granted| ,
|Consequences on Brimth's name|.

I stood  still with tears running all over my face , my heart's beats getting faster and faster , I don't know how I did not fainted , my face was red and my hands were shaking, nothing felt real again , I just wanted to wake up from this nightmare , I didn't want to believe that my stepdad tried to kill me and the man who I was pushing away even though I loved and didn't admit it was the man who saved my life , I lost my self in my thoughts and drowned in my tears suddenly I heard gunshots  and someone opened the door , it was Negan , I dropped the paper in the ground....

- Lydia..we gotta leave - he screamed nervously

As I moved my lips to get him to explain to me what was happening , Brgg , I received a bullet in my chest , maybe my heart , I don't know , everything went slow , I actually didn't feel the bullet cause my heart was already hurt and broken , blood was running all over my body and I fell on the ground .

- NO...stay with me...Lydia..stay with me...don't close your eyes..please..not now.. I need you to stay awake - Negan was pronouncing with a tone of fear and nervousness as he grapped me from the floor and held me between his big arms.

- Ne..Negan , you're here..., why didn't you tell me that you saved me from my dad .- I breathed . He took off his shirt and was trying to stop the blood from pouring with it , everything was happening so slowly he was holding me with an arm and shooting some men with the other until he got us out from there .

- Negan.Negan..Stop, I can't, it's hurting me...Stop -

- No , not now , I'm not..I'm not gonna let you go , just keep your eyes opened Lydia.. I'm not gonna lose you,not like this - he said

- I'm sor..I'm sorry , I LOVE YOU - I whispered brushing his cheek with my thumb.

He smirked with tears all over his face , it was the first time that I see the strong heartless man who held a gun into my face crying in my hands now ,

- I LOVE YOU...I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING LYDIA - he replied with a soft voice then put me in his car .

And  that was the last thing I heard from Negan's mouth before I closed my eyes .
                                       

                                THE END.
                                              or maybe
                                                        TO BE CONTINUED..