RAISING THEM TOGETHER

CHAPTER 2

Someone to talk too

"Blake go play Ok" I tell my 2 year old trying my hardest to not let the tear slip out infront of her not again I don't want her life to fill with negativity. She runs off with Moniques phone. "that's because I'm pregnant Monique." she rushes over to me wrapping her arms around me as she sits next to me.

"oh my god how long have you known" i wipe my tears. "only for like 5 days seeing as I indeed know I conceived on maliks birthday I'm around 7 weeks maybe a few days less I don't know exactly the pregnancy test said 6+ weeks and thay was 5 days ago. Malik knows and so does lisha and I was gonna tell you when me and malik were together but I guess the 2 year old beat us to it." i cry through the tears.

"are these happy tears." she wipes at my tears. "these are I'm scared shitless tears." i laugh but breakdown straight after. Monique pulls me closer rubbing my back. "why are you scared."
I shake my head.

"because I'm so traumatised from blakelyns experience. my pregnancy was horrible I was constantly scared of loosing her even before she was born because of my eating disorder and then birth was horrible I pushed for hours and then she was In serious distress because she was stuck in my cervix canal with lung failure and a hole in her heart because of my issues and I couldn't touch my daughter for a whole year. then after birth my stitches popped twice in four days and then got infected and I nearly risked infertility and I'm so traumatised from it all I've silently cried to sleep for 5 days in your sons arms and woke up and cried. I just don't know what to do. I'm keeping this baby but I'm so scared Monique I'm so so scared and I'm in the exact same position health wise as I was with Blake and I'm so fucking worried and scared the exact same thing is going to  happen and as much as I try and as much as I tried, everything still happened and what if it happens again? I could never forgive myself. the doctors called Blake a miracle what if this baby doesnt survive? I'm just so scared and traumatised I don't know what else to do but cry."

"oh my girl." she kisses my head whilst rubbing my back. "does Malik know your feeling this way" I shrug "I told him I'm scared and I'm traumatised but he doesn't know that all this is running through my head."

I was in the gym 200 pounds in my hands as I have ty spotting me. Even though we've finished highschool me ty and jordan are bestfriends and still make effort to work out twice a week with eachother and have our own groupchat. However Mr.dickhead aka jordan is running over 2 hours late probably head deep in pussy the door to the gym open and in walked the man himself. I rest the weight above my head on its stand with a grunt and sit up.

"how is it that I have a 2 year old daughter and one on the way and still able to get here on time."
He dabs me up. "cause your baby ma's to kind on you." i roll my eyes she too fucking good on me but know need for him to say it like that.

"where you been." i ask laying back down to the bench and him and ty swap so he's spotting me now. "your crib actually." my eyebrow lifts. "why? Your fucking my baby ma." i joke. "haha funny." he rolls his eyes. "but seriously though dude don't get mad yeah...me and lisha have been fucking around for around 2 months." i freeze fuck I can't even get mad seeing as I got her bestfriend pregnant...twice.

"if your dating my sister just say that no need to make it seem so gross also if your gonna see my sister that's the only person your seeing no sneaky links no nothing do you understand cause if I fucking find out your cheating on her. nigga im gonna end your fucking life and if your fucking her put a rubber on it cause I don't want a niece or nephew I already got a daughter to deal with." i look up at him and see him nod.

"I understand dude I've known you my whole life meaning I've known her my whole life and I will never hurt her man I rather kill myself then hurt her." i nod. "good... And keep that mentality for when you do hurt her and I burn your car down with you locked inside it." he chuckles at me but my glare tells me im not joking.

"how about I worry about not hurting my girl while your worry about yours." My eye brow raises. "what do you mean worry about her." i grunt out the weight feeling heavier the more I do. "whilst I was with lisha she walked in sat with lisha for a bit and was bare crying about how she's proper scared and traumatised about being pregnant after Blake she said that you know she's scared but don't really know how badly shes traumatised and scared says she scared shitless but don't really want to tell you and when I was sneaking out I overheared her crying really heavily to your mom it was actually quite scary sayinghow she crys herself to sleep silently in your arms and wake up and crys more she's that scared. " hearing this makes my heart drop to stomach.

I put the weight back on the stand."fuck man."i dab him up. "thanks for telling me man seriously she might have never told me this" he nods. I dab up ty before heading for the showers. I shower and change into grey sweats and black compression shirt. I slide on my vapormaxes.

I rush out the gym and into my rs3 throwing my bag In the back and drive home in silence hating the fact for the pass 5 days my girl has been struggling, crying and I'm have been so oblivious of it like a fucking dumbass I've felt her body shaking when we go bed and instead of realising she was crying I just thought she was cold like a fucking idiot so I just held her closer thinking I'd warm her up but that wasn't the problem.

I pull up parking quickly. I leave my bags and just grab my phone locking my car and rushing into the house and into the living room to see my girl broken and crying in my ma's arms her eyes puffy like she's been crying all day. Her nose was red probablykm from the about of times she wiped it with tissues and her lips were swollen and a dark shade of pink like she's been sucking on them.

Seeing her like this makes my heart drop... Again