Everything that fades

Traumatized

You will never know...
how much I cried that day,
how I begged God to heal all the pieces of me that you shattered,
how I killed the young, careless, naive version of myself,
how many times I woke up crying and screaming in the middle of the night
just because you appeared in my dream.

I won't let you know about these things just for you to use it all against me.