"I wanna go home"
Young me would think
But I was home
Or so I thought
I didn't know the difference between a house and a home
A home is where you felt safe
Even if you weren't physically protected
It was where you knew you would be happy
A house is the structure you reside in
It is the outer husk of the place you sleep
And where the other residents sleep too
Even when I learned the difference
I didn't fully feel at home
Until I found him
He was there and lifted me in my darkest moments
And I did for him
He's the one who I can turn to for the craziest things
All those nights we stayed up for hours talking
All the weekends I spent at his hotel
All he times we hung out in my basement
We never even stayed in the hotel
The clearing in the trees
The dip and double dip
The chain river
The theater
And now the new forest
His voice his eyes his hair and his smile
Those all are what tell me I'm safe now
He saw my demons and instead of fearing or running he showed me his
It's like he told me, "Look, we're the same!" Without mockery or ignorance
He saw how shattered I was
And while he wasn't able to glue the pieces together
He showed me the broken glass in his own being
And sat with me despite our sharp edges
We always loved glass breaking
It's what we always did to bottles we found
And It's what we did to each other's shards
But in a way that was beautiful
We stomped on and broke them together
But while laughing and smiling harder than we ever did
And when all was through he'd help me clean up the glass
We have seen and learned about sides of each other that not even our best friends knew about
We accepted all the parts of each other
The beautiful and peaceful
And the tethered and angry
And my god were we a fucked pair
But I wouldn't ask for it to be any other way
With him I'm unchained and free
With him I'm home
