"SIXTEEN CANDLES"

"I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL YOU"

(A CONVERSATION WITH MY SISTER JANNIE)
'Hey have you heard from Eli yet?' Well yes and no, 'what do you mean by that?' Well, I know that you're not gonna believe me but, his spirit came to me last night. 'His spirit?' Yes his spirit, and it said mama I'm sorry don't be mad at me, but I'm okay. What! That's your baby, what are you saying he's dead?Yeah! I know he's my baby, why would you even say that? Look! he came to me, and now I'm letting everybody know that my baby is gone. You're saying to me that's your baby like I want him to be dead, I'm not saying that, I just think he's over some girl house he met. Okay if that makes you feel better to believe that, then okay believe it. That's what everybody is thinking, I want to believe that theory too, as a matter of fact I did, until he came to me and told me differently. So you saw his spirit? No! He spoke to me, and I could only hear his voice in my head. Well maybe you just imagined it or something, okay look! I know what I heard, and I know what I felt, and I know that voice was from my son. I'm not crazy and I didn't imagine shit, I'm just in tuned with the spirit world and...... Forget it okay? I'm tired of talking, because if you don't have it then you're not gonna get it. And I don't like wasting my breath or my time. I'll see you later.
(That's why I didn't want to say anything, I knew people wouldn't understand, and they certainly wouldn't believe me. Not that I really care if they do or don't, that's why I'm not saying anything to anyone else, besides, in time they'll all know . Hell, their not my responsibility anyway, the only people that I'm concerned about is my other son, my daughter and my Mama. My mind is so discombobulated right now, I am mentally exhausted, I really need to lie down. Dear Father, please! Give me the strength to get through this, because I am afraid that I'm going to lose it).