I NEED YOU

I Need Him

Vivienne's POV
I woke up to a bright light shining from the window, it's the sun setting. I turned to look around the room I was in, it did not look like my regular room, the bed was uncomfortable, I could here footsteps moving outside my room, where am I? I was thinking out loud then I head a beeping sound, am I in the hospital? My questions were answered when a nurse walked into my room with a pad on her hands... She went straight to the heart monitor to check my heart rate immediately I perceived the unkind  hospital smell , it is something I can never get used to
" Good morning Miss Andrews, how was your sleep?"
It took me three seconds to respond to her greeting
" Good morning Nurse... Then I looked at her tag trying to figure out her name, oh it's Ella before she spoke up
" Nurse Emmanuella but they call me Ella, how do you feel this morning?"
" I feel weak and light headed"
" Yeah I know the side effects of the drug  given to you" I had to ask
" How did I get here?" that was when the doctor came in," Oh Vivienne you are finally awake, you did put up a show for us yesterday" he said jokingly  before he answered
"  and  your family brought you here after you fainted  at your house, but you are fine  it's nothing serious, we will just give you some stress relief drugs and some anti depressant drugs and Vivienne you also need to eat, your results showed that you lack Vitamins and please have enough rest we don't want them rushing you back here again right? He asked
" Yeah right"
" Good the nurse will work your papers so that you can be discharged"
" Okay thank you doctor"
They both left the room before my sis came in with a food flask
" Thank God you are okay, she said hugging"
"you are squeezing the life out of me" I told her trying to create space so  that I could breath, she released me and we both chuckled
" Where is mom?" Did she come to see me?
"She was here all night dear, although she is not happy and I don't think she has forgiven you yet"
" I know I Know, I said relaxing back on the bed and closing my eyes"
Mary kept rubbing my eyes till I slept off again.

****
Entering into the mansion brought chills to my body, the incident that happened the before was still fresh on everybody's mind. Although no one wants to talk about it but it is written all over their faces.
I came down for the car and I looked straight ahead hoping to see Noah in front of the quarters but all my eyes saw was a closed window, and a locked door. I can't believe he is  gone
He was not even by my side when I woke up at the hospital. Is this how things will  end? A lot of questions kept running through my head, then I felt an arm around me, it was Mary
"It is for the best Vivienne, we need to get you inside, you need rest okay"
" Okay" we both walked into the house, mommy was standing at the stair case waiting for me, I ran straight to her and hugged her 
" I am so sorry mommy, mommy please forgive me, I couldn't help it mom"
" It's okay Vivienne I understand, feelings can't be controlled but sometimes we need to do what's right and that is in you letting him go and looking for someone else, someone better"
I knew deep down she was talking about Joshua Adams but I did not dare utter a word.
" Let get you to your room now shall we"
" Yes mommy"

****
As the days goes by, I find myself getting completely lost in my head, and thoughts. Waves of emotions flowed through me, I felt alone. My thoughts were eating me up my heart races faster each time I think of Noah and who he is with, I haven't gotten over him yet.
It's been three weeks, three weeks since the incident, the sweetest mistake I have ever made was loving Noah Daniels, he shook my world, he turned me into who I am today and I can't love him less even if he lied to me about his relationship with Emily. They all lied, No one told me about her Not, George not Oliver or even Dennis... I was still lost in my trance when I heard Mary's voice
" Vivienne you need to eat, you've not eaten breakfast yet and it's past 12pm already  why are you doing this to yourself? She asked taking a sit next to me on my bed
" I don't have an appetite for food now  Mary"
" You've not had an appetite since you were discharged from the hospital, the only time you eat is when Mom and I force you to, Vivienne please you need to eat, you know if Noah was here he wouldn't be happy that you are skipping meals"
What she said made tears rolled down from my eyes
" I loved him"
" And clearly you are still in love with him Vivienne but you guys are from two different class, you can't change it. It is best you let him go"
" I can't I wake up everyday with the thought of him, Everything I see reminds me of him, Mary I want him back"
"Vivienne that is impossible, you know that, Noah is another state and Only God knows where, so please sober up and try to eat"  that was when an idea came to me
" can you help me please?"
" No Vivienne I won't call him"
" I am not asking you to call him, I want to see George or Dennis or even Oliver anyone I can meet, I just want to talk to them and understand everything and why he did not tell me about Emily...mom is monitoring my movements I can't go out but you can, please help me Mary, only then can I find peace with myself and let him go"
" are you sure? She asked me
" Yes I am "
" Okay you need to come down and eat, I will try and see what I can find tomorrow I promise"
" thank you so much"
" Alright let head downstairs, I need to feed your myself" she said while trying to tickle me.
We both head downstairs to the dinning room.
****
It's been three days and no news yet... I entered Mary's room without knocking
" What is going on? Haven't you found anything, please tell me something I am loosing my mind"
" Vivienne calm down, okay I actually just got a call from  the private investigator I hired, according to him there is a lead on where Noah's friends are presently. They left their old house because a company bought the whole estate and they were forced to leave impromptu without any plan
" Who would do that?"
" that is what we are about to find out"
" Who is we? I asked getting a little confused
" You and I sweetie, mom is not around so you can go out with me, now go and dress up"
" I am already dressed" I couldn't wait one more minute to find out what is going on
"Okay let's go"