Together at last || Jenna Ortega x Y/n (female)

Chapter 20

Pov: Y/n (the same night as last chapter)

The moment I slip back into reality, I feel Jenna's presence. She's sitting in front of me with a worried look, and her arm stretched out, which after a couple of seconds, I realize is holding in place something cold on my neck. I look around the room and notice everyone else is gone, and the fact Jenna helped me means everything. She knows how much I hate it when this happens in front of people I don't know too well, so she must have sent them away.

As soon as she notices my opened eyes, she jumps to action and offers me water, which I gladly accept. "Hey, I don't want you going home alone this late. Do you want to stay here? Or I'm sure you can stay with Emma if you're more comfortable with that," she asks. God, I would love nothing more than to stay with her, but I know it can't happen. It hurts too much to be around her. I tell her I'll stay with Emma, so she texts her, and not a minute later, she's there.

Jenna says goodnight, and I wave her goodbye before leaving the apartment with Emma. As soon as the door to Emma's place closes behind me, I take the deepest breath I can and lean back into the door. "You okay?" Emma asks and walks toward me. I shake my head. "No, it's so hard to be close to her without being able to touch her, especially after moments like this... She's always been my safe space, and it hurts so much that she just ripped that away from me for such a stupid reason..." I say, close to tears.

"Oh, y/n... come here," Emma says and pulls me into a tight hug. That gives me the rest, and I break down crying, gripping onto her for dear life. "I'm so sorry for all of this. I promise I'll do everything for Jenna to stop the bullshit because she still loves you. I know that," she whispers. „Maybe love isn't enough this time," I say in defeat. I offered her everything, and she didn't even consider taking it before pushing me away. "Don't say that. Everything will be okay," she shuts me down. "Now come on, let's get you to bed," she adds. She leads me to the bedroom. "Here, you can pick any clothes you want, and there's an extra toothbrush in the bathroom," she says and leaves the room, so I pick a sweater and shorts before going to brush my teeth.

Ten minutes later, both of us are ready for bed. "Do you want the couch or the bed?" she asks. "Uhm... the bed, if that's okay," I respond. "Of course, I wouldn't have offered if it wasn't okay," she smiles. So I walk toward the bed, but notice her leaving the room. "Where are you going?" I ask, confused because I thought she meant we would share the bed. "The couch?" she responds, smiling shyly. "Oh... Uhm, would it be okay if you stayed here? I don't want to be alone right now," I say. My voice is just above a whisper, scared that she will find me weird or something. But instead, she smiles at me and whispers, "Of course," before walking toward me.

We both lay down, and she pulls the blanket over us while I get comfortable. "Good night Emma, and thank you for this," I say. "Wait... Can I ask you something?" she whispers and turns to her side to face me. Her eyes pierce mine, and I look at her curiously before nodding. "So, after Jenna broke up with you, she told me how it went down, and I was wondering... would you really have been okay with us seeing each other?" she asks, and her voice sounds really nervous. "Yeah, I would have been. As long as she doesn't do it behind my back and we communicate enough, it's totally okay with me. I would have done everything to make her happy. But, you know... it doesn't matter now," I answer truthfully and get sad once again.

"Thank you, Y/n, you're a great person. I think Jenna is just confused because of her feelings and didn't want to hurt you," Emma whispers. "Well, she hurt me anyway. Like, bad. She didn't even try to make this work for everyone and pushed me away instead. I don't even know who she is anymore."

I start to tear up again, so Emma decides it's best to try and go to sleep. I shut my eyes and try to fill my mind with anything but Jenna, but just like every night, I don't succeed.