Is It Still You?

What should I do now?

"Matt..." I say and look at him while a tear is dropping down my cheek.
He shakes his head and walks away.
I turn around to face Chris. "I need to talk to him." I say still trying to believe what just happened.
"Yeah, you should do that. I think he needs you even if he doesn't want to show it." Chris says and hugs me.
"Thank you." I smile and walk away.
I walk along the road and finally see Matt.
"MATT." I yell. He doesn't stop and continues walking.
"Matt, please wait. I want to talk to you. Can I at least explain everything?" I yell and walk a bit faster.
"There is nothing to explain anymore. You already choose." He says and keeps walking.
"I think you deserve an explanation from me. You are important to me and I want to talk it out." I say. Suddenly he stops and turns around. I walk a bit closer to him and even if it's dark outside I can see that he's crying. He looks at me waiting for me to speak.
Lea: "I don't know why everything got out of control. I didn't mean to do anything of that and I'm really sorry. I didn't want you to find it out like that."
Matt: "Was I even about to find it out or did you want to keep it a secret from me?"
"What? No i could never do that. I would always tell you things like that." I say tearing up again.
"Oh you mean like everything else you had with Chris?" He asks in a serious tone.
"Matt, please. Don't do this...I know it would have hurt you if I-"
"And now I'm not hurt? If you thought you could do something to get out of this situation without hurting me, you're wrong." He says cutting me off.
"I know that I would always hurt you with the decision I made." I say crying.
"That's not even what hurt me the most. What's hurting me more is that I know I would be better for you and you don't realize that." He yells.
"What? What do you mean by that?" I ask confused.
"I know you chose him but I can't let him win that easily. I know that my feelings for you won't go away and I don't want to see the girl I love the most with someone else."
Lea: "Matt...I don't understand."
"Remember what I told you on the roof the other night? I said that I know that it will always be Chris because he is the better looking, the better triplet and all the other shit. Chris got everything he wanted but this time I won't give up. I want to show you the right decision for you and I think that's not him." He says and looks at me.
I want to say something when suddenly a voice appears from behind. It's Nick.
"There are you guys. I thought you two got lost."He says while walking towards us.
"Well, glad we didn't." Matt says and walks away to the garage.
Nick looks after him and then looks at me. "Is everything okay with him?" He asks confused.
"No, nothing's okay..." I respond. He sighs and hugs me tight. "Let's go back home and you tell me everything that happened, okay?" He says patting my back.
I nod and we both walk back to the garage.
Only a few minutes later we arrive at the garage and walk to our car. I can see Matt and Chris sitting in the car in complete silence, not even looking at each other. Nick walks to the back door and opens it when I suddenly realize...
"TOBIAS!" I yell and start running outside trying to find him.
"LEA!!" I hear Nick screaming but I ignore it and keep running into the park.
Some time passes by when I finally see him. He is sitting on a little bridge and is looking at the small lake in front of him. I slowly walk towards him and then stop. I'm standing there and look at him without saying anything.
"I know it's not me." He says and turns around.
"What are you doing here?" He asks and looks back at the lake. I take a few more steps and sit beside him.
Lea: "I wanted to look for you. I was worried."
Tobias: "You don't have to worry about me, i already knew it's not gonna be me."
"Don't say that..." I say silently.
"Who is the lucky guy? Matt?" He asks and looks at me.
"It's Chris." I say.
He nods and stands up.
Tobias: "Did you already talk with Matt?"
"Not really but I will." I say standing up.
"Are you okay?" I ask looking at him.
"Yeah I'm totally fine, I don't care at fucking all that the love of my life chose someone else than me. Are you serious? Of course I am not okay, I'm trying not to think about it and it feels like I'm in a nightmare and can't wake up." He shouts.
"I'm so sorry..." I whisper.
"It feels like everything is breaking down and I can't do something about it." He yells and starts crying.
I walk towards him and hug him.
"You know that he will break your heart." He says. "And I can't let that happen." He whispers.
I feel goosebumps covering my entire body.
What does he mean by that?
"Let's just go back to the car and drive home. It's late and I want to go to bed." He says interrupting my thoughts.
"Yeah sure..." I say still thinking about what he said.
"Everything good?" He asks and gives me a look. "Yeah, I'm just tired that's all." I respond and we start to walk back to the others. While we're getting closer and closer to the garage , I get nervous because the last time they saw each other they were yelling and shouting and everything ended in a complete disaster...but hopefully it gets better and we can forget about all of this, even if I know it will not happen that fast.
Only a few minutes later we arrive at the garage and walk to the car. We get in and Matt immediately starts to drive. The ride is silent and no one speaks, even the radio is turned off.
I look outside the window and try to process everything that happened.
Some minutes later we arrive at home. Matt parks the car, we all get out and walk into the house.
I close the door behind me and take my shoes off. Everyone else has already taken their shoes off and went into their rooms.
Nick is the only one waiting for me on the stairs to go up into our room. I slightly smile at him and we both go upstairs.
As soon as we enter the room he closes the door behind him and sits down on the bed.
"So...do you want to tell me what happened?" He asks and looks at me.
I nod and sit down right next to him.
"I don't even know where I should start..." I say and take a deep breath.
"So basically when everything got out of control and everyone left the car, I ran outside to find Chris because I wanted to let him know about my feelings for him..." I say and take another deep breath.
"After some time I found him and told him everything but the problem was that Matt was standing behind us and heard every single word I said. I realized it to late and he walked away crying. I followed him and tried to talk to him but all he said was just confusing me." I say tearing up.
"Calm down, breath." Nick says and rubs my back.
"What did he say?" He asks.
Lea: "He said that he won't give up because Chris isn't the right one for me and he won't let Chris win that easily because he gets everything he wants."
Nick looks at me with a shocked look on his face. "He said that?"
Lea: "Yeah he did..."
Nick: "And what happened then?"
Lea: "After that you came and we went back to the car until I realized I have to find Tobias and get him too."
"And what did he say about all of this?" He asks.
"He said similar things to me. He said Chris will break my heart and he can't let that happen." I answer.
Nick: "Wow. I didn't know the guys are that serious about this situation."
"They are..." I say and start to cry. "I hurt their feelings and I think I broke their friendship too, all of this shouldn't happen like that. I ruined everything, it's my fault."
"No! You need to listen to me. They knew you have to decide between one of them and even if it's hard, they need to respect and accept the fact you chose Chris." Nick says and hugs me tight.
"But I'm just so confused Nick, what should I do now?" I ask wiping my tears away.
"I would say the best idea is to give them some space. And I mean all of them, also Chris. Let them rest a bit and realize everything that happened today. Tomorrow is another day, you can try and talk to them individually." He says.
I nod and hug him again. "Thank you for being there for me." I say.
"No need to say thank you." He smiles.
"I think we should probably go to bed now." I laugh and look at the time. "It's 2:34 in the morning."
"Yeah, I'm so fucking tired." Nick laughs and walks into the bathroom to change.
Meanwhile I change in our room and after I put on my Pjs I crawl under the blanket.
Nick comes out of the bathroom and jumps on the bed and gets under the blanket too.
"Good night Lea, I love you." He says and turns the light off.
"Good Night, I love you too." I smile and close my eyes.