Is It Still You?

Fuck you

~In the middle of the night~
I wake up and look at the time, it's 4:25 am.
I want to drink something and look at the nightstand next to me. Nothing there. I must forgot to bring a glass of water yesterday, so I decide to go to the kitchen. I hear Nick snoring softly and try to go out of bed quietly because I don't want to wake him up.
I get out of bed and walk downstairs into the kitchen. I don't even turn a light on because it's already a bit bright outside and I don't want to wake the others.
I grab a glass and fill it up with water. As I turn the water off, the light of the kitchen turns on.
I turn around and see Chris standing in the doorway looking at me.
„I think some light would help." He laughs.
„Thank you, I didn't want to wake you up." I say and take a sip.
Chris: "No you didn't. I could barely sleep and wanted to go outside to get some fresh air."
Lea: "Is everything okay?"
"I think I need to ask you that. How are you?" He asks worried and walks closer to me.
"I'm okay..." I respond and slightly smile.
Chris: "No you're not, I can clearly see that."
Lea: "Yeah maybe I'm not but I'm trying to forget about it."
Chris: "How did it go with Matt? Did you talk to him?"
Lea: "I did but I think I have to talk to him again."
Chris: "Sounds good. And with Tobias?"
"The same. We didn't have enough time to talk it out and we were all a bit tired." I say.
"Understandable." He says.
Lea: "I'm just scared because I know that I hurt their feelings and I don't want to argue with them."
"I promise you they will be fine. And if something is up I'm here for you and help you. Nick is here for you too and even Bryan is there for you." He says and hugs me tight
"Everything will be good again." He says.
"I wouldn't say that..." I mumble into his chest.
"Hey, don't say that. It happened hours ago, give them some time." He smiles.
I nod and look at him.
He looks at me too and then kisses me.
"Now I can officially do it." He laughs.
"What do you mean by that?" I ask laughing.
"You chose me, that's all I have to say." He grins and kisses me again.
"You guys can do that somewhere where I don't have to see it." A voice says.
We both turn around and see Matt walking towards us.
"Sorry bro, we didn't want to wake you up." Chris says.
"Can I?" Matt asks and points at the sink.
Chris and I move away from each other. Matt goes between us and while he's filling up his glass with water, he looks at me up and down and winks at me.
I couldn't help but blush a little bit.
After he filled it up, he drinks the whole glass and puts it in the sink.
"Night." He says and walks out of the kitchen.
"Night." Chris mumbles and gives me a look.
"I think we should go to bed." I say and put my glass in the sink.
"Good night." I say and give Chris a kiss on the cheek before I leave the kitchen and walk back upstairs.
"Good night, Lea." He says and walks downstairs into his room.

~The next morning~
Chris POV:
I wake up and rub my eyes. I'm so fucking tired and couldn't sleep because of last Night. I was thinking about Matt. I saw how he looked at Lea and if I'm being honest I'm still thinking about it.
Maybe I should talk to him and see what is going on inside of him. But first I need some breakfast, I'm starving.
I stand up and walk upstairs into the kitchen.
I see Tobias sitting at the table eating some Waffles.
"You made Waffles?" I ask and walk past him.
He nods and takes another bite.
I grab a Pepsi from the fridge and open it. I take a few sips and look at him.
"Can I have some too?" I ask.
"Go for it." He says without even looking at me.
I nod, take a plate and put some waffles on it. I take a seat at the table and start eating.
We eat in complete silence until I break it.
"So...did you sleep well?" I ask not knowing what else I should say.
He just nods and continues to eat.
Chris: "Can you not speak anymore?"
He stops eating and looks at me.
"What? I'm talking to you and all you do is just nodding and not even looking at me." I say.
"Now what do you expect? How should I talk to you after what you did to me?" He says in a serious tone.
Chris: "What I did to you? What did I do?"
Tobias: "Oh I think you know exactly what you did. You stole the love of my life."
Chris: "I think you understand something wrong. It was her decision and she chose me. I didn't force her."
"I'm not sure about that." He mumbles.
"Excuse me? Do you really think I would do something like that?!" I yell.
"If I should be honest...yes, yes I think you would do that." He yells back. "And I'm sure you also told her shit about me and Matt." He says.
"That's bullshit!" I shout.
"Yo, what's going on in here?" Matt asks while walking into the kitchen.
"Nothing much, just the good old shit about last Night." Tobias answers and fake smiles.
"I don't even want to hear it." Matt says annoyed and grabs a plate.
"No Matt, you need to listen. He is understanding everything wrong. He gives me the fault about last night and thinks that I forced Lea to choose me." I say and turn around to look at Matt.
He just looks at me and raises his eyebrows. Then he turns around and puts some waffles on his plate.
I don't understand what's wrong but then I realize it. "Wait...you think that too?!" I yell.
He turns around and slightly nods his head.
"Wait what? No Matt, you are my brother and you know I would never do that?" I say and stand up.
Matt: "That's what I thought too."
Chris: "Are you serious? Are you guys teaming up now or what? Matt, I'm your brother!"
"Shut up Chris! I'm your brother, I'm your brother. I don't give a fuck about that. I thought you are my brother too and you know I have feelings for her and you still kept going on doing your shit." Matt shouts.
"What are you talking about? You know she had to choose between one of us three and it's not my fault." I shout back.
Tobias: "Oh, so your saying it's her fault now?"
"I didn't say that." I say in a angry voice.
Matt: "It's pointless to talk to you. You don't understand it!"
Chris: "Don't understand? What do I not understand? You guys are pissed at me for what happened and that's okay but you can't give me the fault for everything!"
Matt: "But it is your fault. You couldn't stop flirting with her and being at her side 24/7. Well congratulations, now you have what you wanted!"
Chris: "Now tell me one thing. What was your goal behind all of this? All the things that happened between you and Lea? Did you not want to have her one day?"
Matt looks at me in silence until he speaks.
"I would have done it better then you did." He says.
"Better then me? Who started to argue about Lea in the car first? I think it wasn't me." I say.
"Fuck you." He says in a angry voice and leaves the kitchen.