Is It Still You?

Game-Night

"Yeah, it went good...we talked.." I say.
Chris: "What did he say?"
"He said that he doesn't want to argue with you all the time and that you're his brother and he always wants the best for you." I respond.
"I'm happy to hear that. I thought he would be mad at me forever. I understand it, so I wouldn't be surprised. I overreacted to much...I just couldn't control my feelings anymore and let it out on Matt. He didn't deserved it and it was my fault that he left." He says.
Lea: "Matt understands that too. He forgives you and isn't mad at you."
"I'm seriously glad to hear that." He says and smiles. "Anything else you guys talked about?"
"Not really..." I respond.
I feel extremely bad for Chris, I don't know why I kissed Matt. Do I still love him? And will I ever tell Chris about it? He deserves to know it but I think now isn't the right moment.
"U okay?" He says interrupting my thoughts.
"Yeah, I'm sorry." I say shaking my head.
Chris: "Are you sure? You zoned out. Did something happen with Matt?"
What do I do? Should I tell him? I can't keep it a secret forever. I need to tell him...
I look at him and start to tear up.
"Hey, hey, what is wrong? Did he do something to you?" He asks worried.
"He...kissed me." I say while a tear drops down my cheek.
I look at Chris who is death staring me.
"Chris..."
"This fucking asshole!" He shouts and stands up.
"I shouldn't let you go alone. I knew it! I regretted it the second you close the door. I'm going to kill him!" He yells aggressively.
He wants to leave the room but I stop him.
"CHRIS DON'T! I WANTED IT TOO." I yell.
He stops by the door and slowly turns around.
He walks towards me, sits on the bed and...hugs me.
"I love you." He says and gives me a kiss on the forehead.
"I love you too." I respond confused.
I let go and look at him. "Are you okay?" I ask.
Chris: "I'm fine. If I had the chance to kiss you, I would have done it too. I can understand him, he has feelings for you and I can't do anything about it."
"But I..."
"I know, you wanted it too and that's okay. You have still some feelings for him and I think you will always have that and he will always have that for you but I just hope that the feelings for me will always be a bit stronger." He says and slightly smiles.
"Chris...of course they will be. I love you and I chose you!" I say and take his hand.
We interlock our fingers and look each other in the eyes. Chris starts to smirk and grabs my waist, he pulls me closer to him and kisses me.
"Hey guys did you find- Omg I'm sorry..I didn't want to interrupt you two." Matt says standing by the door.
Chris and I instantly stop and move away from each other.
"It's fine...what do you need?" Chris asks.
Matt: "I just wanted to look for you guys. Did you find some games to play?"
Chris looks at him confused. "What?" He asks.
"The games? The reason why you two went to your room. We wanted to play some?" Matt says and frowns.
Chris: "Yeah...The games..right. Yeah we found some."
Matt: "Okay and where are they?"
"Uhm they were right next to us but I'm not sure where we put them.." Chris says while looking around.
"I'm going back..I think you guys still need some time ." Matt says.
"No..we really had some ga-" Chris wants to continue but Matt was already out of the room.
Chris sighs and stares at the door.
"C'mon, I think we should grab some games and go back. The others are waiting." I say and look at Chris.
"Yeah you're right, let's actually find some." He says and starts to search for some games to play.
After we found a few, we leave the room and walk into the living room.
"What took you guys so long?" Nick asks and looks at me and Chris.
Lea: "We had to find them. Chris put them somewhere where we couldn't even find them at first."
Chris: "But we found them, that's the only thing that matters."
"Okay good. Let's start to play then." Bryan says and we all start to play together.

(Time - skip 3 hours later)

"Guys, I think I have to go home now." Bryan says and stands up.
"Don't you think that it's a bit too late?" I ask.
Bryan: "No, it's fine. I can drive at night. Not my favorite thing to do but I can do it."
"You could sleep here...in mine and Lea's room, right?" Nick says and looks at me.
"Of course. I can sleep on the-"
"My room. You can sleep in my room." Chris says interrupting me.
"If that isn't a problem. I would love to." I say smiling.
Chris: "No not a problem for me, quite the opposite..I'm happy to have you by my side."
Tobias and Matt roll their eyes and leave the living room. Matt walks past me, winks at me and then smirks. I look at him and say: "Good night."
"Good night princess." Tobias whispers in my ear and leaves the living room as well.
Bryan and Nick go upstairs while Chris and I go downstairs.
As we enter the room Chris lets himself fall on the bed. I let myself fall next to him and we both stare at the ceiling.
Lea: "We should go to sleep now, it's really late."
Chris: "That's true. Let's go to sleep."
He takes his shirt off and lies down next to me. He shuts the light off and puts his arm around my waist.
"Good night my love." He says and gives me a kiss on the forehead.
"Good night, Chris." I say and we both fall asleep.

Sorry for not posting.🙈I had a lot to do but I'm back again!! Hope you guys like this part, stay tuned☺️