"For the rest of our days, I'll remain the sky is falling down the night is calling you a star is burning out the sky belongs to you we're alive somewhere else still asleep someplace new far ahead of our time now, now floating through"
December 25 2007
Bill had to stay over since Tom didn't want to get up everyone had left except for my dad "so y/n is erm bill your boyfriend" he said trying his best to sound American "yea dad right bill" I looked over at bill he was blushing like crazy I thought he was blushing over me telling my dad but he was texting Asher. I looked back at my dad "Es ist kompliziert" I gave him a small smile. I was mad at bill why was he blushing what did Asher do to make bill blush like that was he loosing feelings for me?
My thoughts were going 100 mph I started to panic I was having another panic attack my hands were nonstop shaking the room started spinning I could only hear my heart beat I was scared to lose the love of my life I never wanted to lose him. My dad noticed me shaking "y/n are you okay" he got up and stood by my side "dad help I can't breathe" I wheezed out I felt like I was suffocating I started sweating my chest was in pain I was feeling nauseous I looked around to see my mom scared leo widened her eyes bill had a cold expression on his face.
"Y/n y/n" I could hear bills voice calling me I fluttered my eyes open I was on the floor had I passed out? Was my panic attack that bad?? I gently sat down "what happened" my dad looked at me "you passed out y/n what's wrong what happened" I looked around "I- um I don't know" I looked down I couldn't say why I had my panic attack I didn't want bill to get mad at me or lose his feelings for me.
"Y/n can I talk to you for a second" Leo got down on her knees grabbing my arm. I looked up and nodded my head "can you guys leave us alone for a minute" she asked everyone in the room "okay we'll leave" my mom said gesturing my dad to come with her "id like to stay" bill was crossing his arms "no please leave I need to talk to him alone" Leo was glaring at him he rolled his eyes walking away "whatever" why was he being so mean all of the sudden had I done something wrong leo looked at me then bill "y/n im telling you this now bills a bad person I don't think he's good for you y/n do something about before you get hurt" she got up holding her hand out trying to help me get up "oh and watch out for Asher I didn't mean to look at his messages but they definitely flirt a lot just to be friends" I got up and nodded my head going to my room where bill was.
I opened the door to see him in the bathroom on the phone with someone it was most likely Asher I went close to the bathroom to hear what he was saying
"No he doesn't know"
"I can't just leave him like that I need a reason to break up with him"
"Yea exactly but he doesn't understand that"
"I need you Asher"
I left my room tears filled my eyes he wanted Asher? Did he genuinely lose feelings for me was I too boring why would he ask me out just to leave me wasn't I the one he loved what happened to him why'd he change all of a sudden. I ran out the door not caring about the weather I just wanted to get out of there I ran until I couldn't anymore I dropped down to the snow crying my eyes out it hurt me so much to lose the one I loved more than myself I wouldn't know what to do without him. I heard someone running behind me I turned around to see bill he dropped down right next to me "y/n what's wrong why are you crying out in this cold" I stared at him not knowing what to say I opened my mouth but nothing came out "you need to leave bill" he gave me a confused look "what y/n why" "just go bill" "bu-" I cut him off "JUST GO" I yelled.
Bills pov
Y/n yelled at me this was the first time he's raised his voice at me I was stunned for a bit "fine whatever" I got up annoyed I walked back to his house I opened the door to see Tom talking to Leo "come on Tom let's go" I said sternly Leo looked at me "what the fuck did you do where's y/n" she got up standing in front of me "I don't know he's being a bitch why should I car-" I felt a sharp pain on my face she slapped me "don't you dare ever talk about my brother like that or next time it won't be a simple slap on your fucking face do you understand" she spat on my face she was mad.
Y/n's pov
I heard Leo screaming I thought something happened to her I ran back home I quickly opened the door to see Leo screaming at bill. Everyone's eyes went on me leo saw my eyes red glistening with tears "what did you do to him bill" she said in a harsh tone he stayed silent "WHAT DID YOU DO" she yelled my parents came out to see what all the screaming was about "POR QUE ESTÁN PELANDO" my mom yelled at leo "mom not now please this dick head is making y/n cry he's bad for y/n" she pushed him out the door causing him to fall "never show your fucking face here again" she slammed the door.
Tom stood there "y/n Asher is.. bills friend like literally only his friend nothing more" I looked at him "fuck off Tom" i went to my room I didn't know what to feel were we still together what was happening.
"Was I a burden to bill?"
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A/N: this was a sad one to write I relate so much to y/n in this chapter which made me quite sad 😭 but yk just a character hope you guys like this chapter ‼️
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