68th Hunger Games// Y/n

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"I can't do this!" I yell "I'm not- I won't talk about Beckett, or the ten kids" I yell and Finnick groans. I glance at the mirror and the crazy girl stares back at me. I scream and smash the mirror into a million tiny pieces. Something pinches my arm and everything goes black.

I wake up in my room in the training centre. Agnes, my designer, stands up and the team comes in. They wash me and do my make up, very little. They leave my hair natural and dress me in a floor length dress, tight around my waist and water-like fabric flows down.

"You look beautiful dear" Agnes hugs me and I hug him tightly. I wait behind the stage with Finnick and he looks at me. My arms are cross and a frown is on my face
"Answer his questions and smile," Finnick says and I nod.

"And now... The winner of the 68th annual Hunger Games, Miss Y/n L/n!" Music plays and I walk out, the crowds gasp. "My, my, my, doesn't she look beautiful?" Caesar asks and the crowd roars in response. He hugs me and I hug him back "Y/n, sit please" He says and I nod. I sit alone in the chair.
"Congratulations Y/n" He says, holding my hand and I smile
"Thank you, Caesar"
"She knows my name" He jokes and the crowd laughs. He asks me about the games, my thoughts going in, my strategies.

"What was your strategy going into the games, I mean, you won with a total of ten kills. That must be a record" The crowd whoops.
"Stay with Beck" I say simply "I knew I can trust him, he'd never hurt me" I smile sadly
"Beckett" Caesar sighs sadly, he doesn't care, not really. "You cared about him?"
"I love him" I say, and tears fill my eyes. "I've loved him for a long time, I just, I wish I told him before"
"Oh" He sighs and I hear some cries from the audience.

"Maybe he wouldn't have volunteered"
"Now, he said he volunteered to get you out"

"Yes" I nod, he frowns sadly.

 "Yes" He nods and sighs "he didn't seem to approve of your alliance" I laugh sadly, acting.

 "No, he thought it would be a good idea but I guess it worked. I'm here" 

"You are, and we're glad" Caesar says and I smile "we're going to take a short break and when we come back we'll watch your games" The crowd cheers and I walk off the stage, right into Finnicks arms.

"I don't want to watch" I cry and he holds me tightly

"I know" Finnick wipes my tears and I take a deep breath. I sigh and walk back out, a screen is paused on an aerial view of the arena.
"Welcome back! Y/n, dear, are you ready?" Caesar asks, hand on mine
"Yes" I smile and he smiles. The games start, it cuts to different camera angles and shows me killing two kids. The screen pauses as I'm stabbing the boy from 11

"I think here is where you really caught people's attention, am I right?" Cheers and I laugh. It plays, Beck and I leave the careers and everyone cheers. The first night passes and it shows Rowan and Lindsay walking through the forest, trying to find us and they do. We make our alliance and it shows Rowan and my fight in the forest.

"Now here, personally, I thought you would take this opportunity to get rid of Rowan" Caesar says and murmurs of agreeance float throughout the crowd

"I saw him as a valuable alliance and to be honest Caesar I didn't even think of killing him" I say and crowd members aw. 

"Why is that?" He asks. They made bets.
"I wanted a fair fight, I wasn't going to stab him in the back" I say simply which earns some laughs. It plays and it shows the careers hunting down tributes.
"When Lindsay stepped on the trap-" Set by Cache "-you really stepped up and took care of her. I think it took the nation by surprise considering your kill count" I nod and guilt pangs in my chest

"I saw her as a little sister. I wasn't going to leave her" I say and the games continue playing. It shows other tributes but eventually it gets to me and Beck by the water.
"Now I think this was a highlight of the games for a lot of people" Caesar leans forwards as Beck and I kiss. I smile faintly, remembering how soft his lips were against mine, how over the moon I felt. Tears prick at my eyes and he holds my hand. It then shows me and Beck running from a mutt. Hazel and I run into each other and the whole crowd "oohs" then the fight breaks out. Lindsay and Rowan rescue us and I tackle Hazle out of the view.

 Lindsay gets knocked out by Chase and Rowan fights Xander but ends up getting stabbed in the chest. The two boys team up on Beckett and while they're fighting Lindsay gets up and runs away. I then drop out of the tree and end Xanders life. My heart drops at the next part, Chase throws a spear and Beck pushes me out of the way. A switch flicks in me and I turn ferrell, I attack Chase screaming. Goosebumps rise on my arm and I go stiff. I crouch beside Beckett and my heart shatters again as silent tears roll down my cheeks and I have to look away, covering my mouth to keep from sobbing. I can hear the desperateness in my voice, the grief, the anger.