ⓣᵘв𝕓Ø pov:
"Tubbo did you hear?!?" Tommy yelled out of breath. I turn to look in the direction I assume he's coming from. As I find I'm correct I see a panting Tommy who has a small piece of paper in his hand, running towards me. He comes to a stop basically dying from the small amount of physical excursion, hands on his knees crouched down. I make a small disgusted face at the poor sad boy I call my 'best friend'.
"Look!" He barley gets out, handing me the crumpled paper, which is also terribly warm from his body heat.
I unfold it with the sleeves of my oversized hoodie getting in my way. I keep in mind to not roll up my sleeves too far. You can't. I remember. He can't know. He's too nice to know. If he finds out he'd sacrifice his perfect life for mine, and he doesn't deserve that, especially not for me. I move them slightly out of my way and find the terribly warm note is a flyer for the upcoming school musical. So that's what this is about.
"You'd definitely get the lead role! You're amazing at singing!" He exclaimed.
"Tommy, I'm flattered, but c'mon... you know I have stage fright. I can't do this."
"C'mon! Face your fears! Come out of your shell! Live a little!" He smiles encouragingly.
My mom did tell me I should do something with my life. She said, "Blah blah blah, do something with your life, yada yada yada, you're a useless piece of shit, something something something, you're so lazy." If I do this, then she might love me like a real mom, or like how I should love myself. I can finally have a fully functioning family I want. A perfect life.
I just want someone to trust, you know?
I sigh. This is the key to my true happiness. For Mom.
"Fine Tommy, but only 'cause you look so pathetic begging me," I smile to him. He can't know the real reason why. I think to myself (what a wonderful world). I observe the flyer further. The auditions are tomorrow, right after school until five. Guess I'll have to tell mom tonight then. That'll be exciting.
"What's the show anyways?" I ask looking up to him.
"I think it's... A Small World?" He says looking up to the celling while in thought.
"Huh, never heard of it," I reply.
"Apparently its something they made on their own to cut down on prices. They probably can't fund to get a real show, but I heard from Wilbur it's surprisingly good." Oh yeah, Wilbur, Tommy's brother. Also everyone's favorite teacher.
"Yeah, sure,"
"Oh c'mon, have some faith!" He cried.
"Yeah, yeah what's the song to sing in auditions anyways?"
"Uhhhhhh, Good for you by Olivia Rodrigo," Great, a song I actually know.
"At least I know it," I smile. The bell rings and Tommy and I walk to our last period, it's basically a free period, because of our aforementioned favorite teacher. It's supposed to be science, but we're a few lessons ahead, so we get a free day.
"So what's the story?" I question.
"I don't know, I'll have to ask Wil." He says as we walk into the almost full classroom.
"Wilbur!" Tommy calls out.
"What do you want Tommy. Oh hi Tubbo!" He smiled warmly at me.
"Can you tell us about the musical?" I ask knowing he'd say no if Tommy asked.
"Yeah, only cause, Tommy didn't ask." He smiles. Tommy and I move two desks to his. Tommy of course muttering a string of curse words while sitting down.
"So the principal told me it was a romance, and perfect for Tubbo if you want the lead role, cause it's a gay one." He smiled. He's one of the two people in the world who knows I'm pansexual. Just him and Tommy. "I think its just like, your run of the mill, romance story, but instead of like, some boring problem, it's with them having to come out to their parents."
"It's not that bad" Tommy says. "I'm just scared for who's gonna be the romantic interest for Tubbo," He smiled raising his eye brows up and down like an idiot. Of course that's what he's thinking about.
"Oh my god Tommy, shut your mouth!" Wilbur laughed at out antics and started typing teacher shit on his computer.
For the rest of class we just talked. Talked about life, talked about Minecraft, talked about the play. It was all fun until the bell rang. Now I gotta go home.
Shit.
ʀᴀɴʙᴏᴏ pov:
"Soo... you're gonna do the musical?" Niki asked walking next to me home. We're neighbors so we've always walked to to and from school together. We've basically been friends since birth, she's always been here to comfort me.
"I don't know Niki, it's a romance," I say. I don't want to let her down, but I don't want to lie to her.
"But c'mon, it's not real," She smiles still trying to convince me. She's such an optimist. Not in a bad way though!
"But Niki! It's gay! I'm not homophobic, but I don't want people to think I'm gay! I'm not!"
"Geez, fine, but your dad was so excited for you to get a lead role, he really needs this Ranboo, you can't let him down like your mother did. I'm not saying you have to but think of your dad." She said.
My dad was really excited for me to get the lead role. He was so excited for the new musical. I guess I really can't let him down. After...mom... he was really down. He ended up in the hospital after trying to kill himself. He jumped off a cliff. I was only six. He lived in the end and went to physical rehabilitation while I stayed with Niki and her mom. She's basically my second mom now. But after therapy and some quality time with me, he's found a new reason to go on with life. I can't let him down now. I have to do this. For dad.
"Fine you got me, I'll audition." I smile to her.
"Yes! Yes, yes, yes, yes! I love you so much!" She hugged me.
"Of course, you're basically my sister."
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wooooooooooo!! first chapter! i think it's pretty good but i'll let you guys be the judge of that.
reminder: you are beautiful, and smart. don't let some dumb bitch tell you otherwise. eat food, and drink water, its important for your health. you're doing great. if you need a break, then take a break, have a rest day, stay in bed, eat lots of food, and most importantly don't over work yourself.
i love you /p and have a good day/night/afternoon! byeee
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