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Poetry

just a collection of poems I wrote and my thoughts. trigger warning aime or all deal with trauma. ptsd. and other mental health issues

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by elora-ray

by elora-ray

Is it really worth it to keep going down this path?

Is it really worth it to hope for a life I'll never have?

I think again? I have to do this another day?

While I curse my life and still I pray.

I pray to something I may not believe.

While I chase the dreams I know I can't achieve.

My pain begun the moment I opened my eyes.

As I quickly learned my smile would be my biggest disguise.

So is it really worth it to keep going on now?

After all the hurt and pain I'm kind somehow.

Is it really worth it to entertain my misery.

As demons laugh and make fun of me?

I'm caught in my web of lies

I use a a disguise.

I pretend that in happy as the pain

Hides in my eyes.

I see the danger and the clouds of depression coming

And I think can I really do this again?

Or stop trying and commit a mortal sin?

My throat is closing. Chest grown tight.

I know deep down I'll lose this fight.

My eyes brim with unshed tears

As I remember the abuse through the years.