Foolish

Why are you here ?

~callidora ~

How dear he come back after so many years ? So many emotions hit me at that very moment ..peanut ?.. Peanut ? .. Peanut ? I kept asking myself. It's really him this can't be true. I was freaking out pacing back in forth in the bathroom. I needed time to get myself together should I be angry with him ? Should I be happy to see him ? Why am I even angry that he's here right now ? I needed to get back out there before people started looking for me. Maybe I should just leave.

I went back on the beach trying to act normal as possible I wanted to change into some clothes so I could go home , but my loud as grand mother called me over to where she and all my aunts were.. Oh and peanut. Just great.

" what's up gram ?"

" Did you see peanut here ?" She asked like he wasn't just standing in my face.

" yes I seen peanut I hugged him , and said hi but you know I gotta go get ricky from work in another two hours so I think ima head out I dont wanna be late." I was trying my best to get the hell up out of here.

" ummhum that dead beat still ain't get his car fixed ? Broke ass nigga I told you to put his ass on -" I cut her off before she started telling my hole life.

" gram can you mind your business for a change ? , and he's trying his best to do right by me , and jada so cut him some slack okay ?"

" okay baby your right , but look at my son he done got so grown up I remember when you and dora use to run around my house like wild animals now yall acting like you two don't know each other". My grand mother said.

" Well gram when you haven't seen some one in years you really don't know them, so he's basically a stanger to me ." I said with much aduttide.

" dora why you acting like that to me ? I know you miss me , I miss you too stop being like that " peanut tried reasoning with me.

" I dont miss you I don't even know you"

" chill out child with that temper of yours before I have to beat your ass about my son" my gram says.

" gram he's not your son , I gotta go bye " I grabbed my victoria secret beach bag that was sitting besides my grandmother's chair , then I grabbed my daughter P.S bag that had her clothes in it.

" jada staying with me tonight I already told you that " my grandmother love kids , but jada was her favorite her house was like a built in baby center. She cooked every single day , and made sure the kids had clean clothes on every day. For free. It just can't get better then that.

" gram you need a break you have her every weekend take some time for yourself "

" chile please if I can take care of everybody else kids I can take care of my great grand baby now leave her bags" she tells me.

" okay I'll pick her up in the morning "

" dont you dear come early like you did last time. That child still be sleep ima call you when she ready"

" okay , okay but make sure you call me when she wake up , and gets dressed "

" okay baby I will say bye to peanut" I know my grandma and she was trying to be funny.

I shook my head at her , she was something else. " bye peanut , BYE EVERYBODY IM OUT !!" I said loud so that my family that was near by could hear me. My daughter was playing with her little cousins so I let her be.

" BYE DORA!!" my family said. I went to put on an extra pair of clothes I brought with me , and left the beach.

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I went home so I could take a nice hot bath and a nap before going to pick up ricky. I clogged the drain so that the water stayed in the tub , turned on my radio , and got undressed. I heard my phone beep informing me that I had a text message , so I went back in my room got my phone then headed back to the bathroom. I put one foot in the tub to see if it was hot enough before putting my hole body in. I relaxed my head on the wall then looked at my phone to see who was texting me, it was a number I didn't know.

anonymous: You didn't have to dis me like that ?

Me: who dis ?

anonymous: peanut.

Me: what do you want ? ... Stop texting me .

Peanut: not until you tell me what I did wrong.

Me: who gave you my # ? .

Peanut : mama gave it to me , now answer my question.

Truth is I couldn't answer his question he didn't really do anything wrong I was really upset because we were so close and he just left me. I had no one to talk to except my grandma and sometimes my mom , but it wasn't the same as talking to peanut. All my cousins were mean to me they pulled my hair just because it was Fuller and thicker then theirs. The only one who stood up for me was peanut , and he's not even my blood. Then he just disappeared on me , no one to help or stand up for me. After he left my cousins teasing got worse and worse they called me a stick figure just because I wasn't fully developed. You'll think they would stop picking on me but it lasted for years until I started sticking up for myself. I betcha they stoped messing with me then.

Me: what question ? I knew what he asked me , but I really didn't want to answer it. I don't care if it made me look stupid.

Peanut : Don't play with me answer my question Callidora !!.

I smiled .when we were little he said my name so weird so I could only imagine how he says my full name now .

Me: Peanut !! Stop texting me im sleeping.

Peanut : stop that lying but I wanna see you again so meet for lunch some time.

Me: Who said I wanna see you again?

Peanut: you and me both know you want to see me , so Saturday at 5pm don't be late ohh yea and it's a date bye :).

Me: IT'S NOT A DATE :/. I had this big ass grin that hurt my cheeks , but I couldn't help it.

I put my phone on the side of the tub, washed up, brushed my teeth , and got dressed. I skipped my little nap because I know how ricky is , and of im late he would be mad.