Love from the Past

Confusion

I looked at Sehun in shock. We barely talked. We've talked a few times but never a real conversation.
"Sehun, you don't know me."
"You don't know her!" A man yelled behind me. I turned to see Kai, and he was angry.
"What the hell are you doing?" he yelled as he stormed over to Sehun. He grabbed his collar and jerked him forward.
"Okay Kai, calm down." Sehun calmly said. "It was just a joke." he said holding his hands up in defense.
"See Kai, it's a joke. Get off him now!" I yelled pushing him away.
"Why are you on his side!" Kai screamed at me.
"Why do you care! Leave me alone! I'm not yours to protect, I'm not yours at all!"
He looked at me shocked.
"Thank you Sehun, for walking with me. But you should go now. Be safe Sehun." I hugged him and watched him walk away.
"You. JongIn, I mean Kai. I don't want you near me. I can't even look at you. I'm confused, my heart is confused. I can't. I can't be around you. It hurts to much. Please leave." I told him as a tear ran down my face.
"Mianhae. Please don't cry Suryoung. I love you."
"Don't say that! You love the little girl you knew years ago. Goodbye.. Kai." I ran time and locked the door. How could k have been so stupid to love that man. I knows he's changed.. I've changed. I see that he's changed but he doesn't see that I've changed. Maybe I should give it a try with Chanyeol. He makes me happy, and he genuinely cares about me. I slid down the door... why is this so confusing?! I sat there for a long time. I don't remember how long I sat there. I remember my cousins and uncle trying to talk to me. They told me they would be back, that they had a meeting in Pusan. I stand here in Seoul, sitting there on the floor.
"Sueyoung! Please open the door." I heard from the other side of the door. I didn't flinch. I had no feeling.
"Your Uncle gave us a key in case of an emergency. I'm coming in Sueyoung."
I stared into space. Nothing in mind. Finally my mind if clear. No Kai, no Sehun, no Chanyoel. No worries.
The door swung open and I saw Chanyeol. I was surprised. Seeing him, I was still numb.
"Sueyoung are you alright? God you look terrible. Are you hurt? How long have you been like this?"
"I'm fine. Leave." Is all I said.
"No. I'm not leaving you like this. I brought Chinese food. You need to eat, and get out of this funk. Coooommmmeeee ooonnn!" He groaned pulling me up to my feet.
"Ahhh Chanyeol...!" I whine.
I leaned up against the wall and glared at him. Watching him get blankets and pillows and place them in front of the couch. He made a small picnic/bed area in front on the tv.
"Come. Let's watch something and eat. It'll make you feel better." He said patting the floor with a wide smile.
I slowly walked over and sat next to him. He had the food places nicely and a few candles lit.
"Chanyeol, why are you here?"
"I was worried. Now let's eat."
"Why?"
"Sueyoung, you've been sitting there for four days. You haven't talked to anyone and haven't been taking care of yourself."
I looked into his eyes and saw genuine concern.
"Thank you." I said under my breath.
"Your welcome."
We ate in silence as we watched a drama.
He slowly started falling asleep. I watched and I started to feel again. My heart started pounding.. heat warmed my body and my face. I felt nervous but happy...what does this guy do to me?