The Lost one

Jealousy

London 1667

Well, the boy sparkles in the light. I had a feeling he would be one of them. Besides that upsetting fact, Carlisle is actually a kind young man. He was beside himself for the people he hurt. He has not been out of his room this week. He is trying to starve himself to atone for what he has done. No one has been able to get him to come out. So, I decided to intervine. I know at first I was not fond of the boy, but he has been growing on me lately. I would like to see this boy prosper, not wallow in his grief. We have all be there, becoming a vampire or a wolf comes with sacrifices. Rarely is there a time that someone is turned and they do not hurt someone. It is something we have to find a way to live with. Some vampires think it is too much and flip their humanity switch. I would never recommend that. It causes more problems when you are trying to solve them. I go to his room and knock on the door.

Me: Carlisle Cullen. Open the door.

Carlisle: There is no helping me Ms. Mikaelson. I have hurt many people, taken innocent lives. I do not deserve this life.

Me: Come open the door please. *A few seconds went by and I hear that the door is unlocked. I open the door and walk in* There we go. I am going on a walk. You are welcome to join me if you are up for it.

Carlisle: Why are you trying to help me?

Me: I have been in your shoes son. I know what you are thinking and what you are going through. This is not a feeling that anyone should bare alone. It is up to you if you take my help or not. *I start to walk out of his room*

He gets up and puts on some shoes. Clearly taking me up on my offer. I have found a new attachment to this boy in the last couple of months. We start walking, thankfully it is not raining tonight. We walk in silence for about thirty minutes before he speaks to me.

Carlisle: I did not want to hurt thoes people. I am finding it hard to forgive myself.

Me: *I think for a little before asking him* Have you ever considered feeding on animals?

Carlisle: *He looks at me in confusion* We can do that?

Me: Well yes. We only need blood to survive. It does not have to be human blood. Though, animal blood makes you weaker. Regardless, this option may be better for you. I have noticed that you get upset after feeding. I see that hurting humans is something that upsets you more than most things. I think you should think about changing your diet.

Carlisle: I think that would be a good option. Thank you Ms. Mikaelson.

Me: Call me Anaiah. *I say smiling to him*

Carlisle has been with us for the last seven or eight months. He has grown to be apart of our family. He decided that the animal diet was the way to go for him. I had to get my siblings on board with the idea. They did not understand why he would do that. But I made sure my siblings scrutiny never reached him. I have found that pouring my time into this boy keeps my mind off of my brother and Katerina. They have gotten closer in the last months. It has been weighing on me watching them grow closer. I have been finding any and every excuse to not be around them while they were together. I have nothing against my brother or Katerina. I just do not like the feelings that arise in me while I am with them. I decided to go out to our terrace to get some air. Bekah thought it was a good idea to host a party at our house. Then invited everyone. By everyone, I mean EVERYONE. I am getting uncomfortable in my own home. I quietly go to my room and grab some clothes to go outside. I need a walk. When I walk downstairs I see Kathrine and Eli dancing with each other. Damn. I try to sneak out without anyone noticing that I am leaving. Unfortunately I failed.

Drunk girl: Hello there. What is your name?

Me: Naiah, and you?

Drunk girl: Stacy.