Rivals with benefits ( Dabihawks smut )

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Hawks swallowed hard, trying to make up his mind and put it into words. "So, I'm unsure how to say this..please...uhm, I hope you can stay afterwards." He fidgeted with his fingers, trying not to be as nervous. "I think I'm falling for you....hard. I tried to pull myself together but I can't. My feelings are just so strong...I think I'm in love with you." He was so red in his face, his heart beating like crazy.

Dabi looked at him blankly, blinking his eyes at him and clearing his throat. "..I- I won't leave.." he murmured, looking down a bit and then up at him, his ears heating. It was confirmed, he felt the same. "I feel the same.." he muttered, "I really like you..love you even.. but I just can't.." he explained, a bit saddened. "I can't do relationships.." not again.

During the first parts of the sentences, Hawks' heart lit up, his insides feeling as if he would be tingling all over. Then it all came crushing back down, Dabi's words cutting through him. It was absolutely horrible and he was trying to pull himself together. "B-baby..." he knew Dabi couldn't date him properly but he wanted it so much. "We could make it work..."

He ran a hand over his face, "it's not my job..and it's not you..." he whispered, taking a deep breath. Oh fuck. Emotions. How he hated them. Things he hadn't let to the surface just came back up again after a year or two. "It's me..I just- I can't let myself do them.."

Hawks closed his eyes, a wave of suffocating sadness slowing him down. His eyebrows twitched a bit and he honestly had to fight back tears. "I- I wouldn't want you to feel pressured..." He would try to give Dabi done space, not wanting to hurt him more. Stupid feelings. A single tear ran down his cheek. He wasn't able to hide his pain anymore. With him opening his stupid mouth, he most definitely lost Dabi forever.

He pressed his lips against the blond's, he then let out a quiet sob against his lips. He breathed a word..a name..a name no one'd spoken in ten years against his lips before mumbling. "Love, I just can't.." he murmured. His walls were coming down without him wanting them to...just shattering on their own, guess they were up for too long. "I can't let myself.." he repeated..love hurts people..and- I don't want to hurt again.." he said quietly.

Hawks was crying now too, having his eyes closed because this was just too painful. "I- I'd never hurt you, I would never..." he stammered, knowing he was trying to fight a lost battle. "Please, I want to ke this work..." he held onto Dabi so hard, as if he would slip away. The man's scent, the man's warmth, it was all so familiar to him in a way. When Dabi whispered something he turned his head, "W-what did you say?"

Dabi nodded, giving in, "okay..will you be my boyfriend..?" He asks in a little sniffle against him. He held the male back, taking a deep shaky breath, wiping his bloody eyes, looking away. "I didn't say anything.." he murmured

Hawks started sobbing even  more, hugging Dabi so hard he could feel the staples pressing into his own skin. "Yes, please, yes, I wanna be your boyfriend so badly~ I love you~" He gave him a kiss on the forehead, and then kissed him for real. His heart was so full and happy, he kissed Dabi's tears away, wiping the rest off with his thumb. "Please don't cry, baby~"

Dabi leaned into him, smiling and kissing back. "I wanna be so good for you.." he whispered, leaning into him, he kissed him back, taking a deep breath, his face a bit bloody. He enjoyed this..he was just scared for when it would get bad. "I love you.." he whispered, kissing him harder

Hawks licked into Dabi's mouth, then kissed down lower until he reached his jawline, whispering lowly, "Wanna be my good boy?~ Wanna show me how well you can take me?~" The tears were gone now, a slight wave of arousal running through his body. "Mmm, I want to make you feel so good." Long fingers were running over Dabi's body, touching him all over, rubbing over his nipples under his shirt.