2:13 am
bird brain <3 :
- hey
- are you okay?
2:37 am
Touyaaaa!! :
- yeah
- took a nap that lasted like 3 days 'cause i puked every time i woke up lol
- cant remember anything else
- definitely sick :P
Keigo stares at the message, numbness crawling over his body. He shuffles deeper into his blankets, tucking his chin into a stuffed shark as he debates his reply. Fortunately, Touya texts before he can drive himself into a hole of overthinking.
2:43 am
Touyaaaa!! :
- why'd u text me?
Keigo debates whether or not he should tell the truth. Lying has only ruined their lives three times so far, and Keigo thinks he might be willing to risk it in order to avoid an awkward conversation. But just as quickly as the lies map themselves out in his mind, Keigo gets sick to his stomach. He wants to tell the truth.
2:54 am
bird brain <3 :
- you stopped by my place the other day
- drunk
Touya doesn't answer. Keigo can imagine him reading over that single line of text, over and over and over, feeling his heart sink into his stomach acid. Selfishly, Keigo hopes the accusation hurts. He hopes it punctures that bastard right through his tiny, pathetic, useless, alcoholic brain. And then... then he feels guilty for feeling that way, for wanting to hurt the man he loves after he made just a couple of minor mistakes.
They weren't minor mistakes, Keigo tells himself. In the days since the odd incident, Keigo's body has been stagnant, recovering from what could have been, but his mind has never once shut up. He's been trying to force-feed himself positive self-talk like Rumi had advised a while back, but he ends up puking it back up only to shove it down again, half-hearted and exhausted.
Touya's text snaps Keigo out of his thoughts.
3:09 am
Touyaaaa!! :
- did i hurt you?
Again, Keigo considers lying. What harm would it do if he told Touya no? What kind of magnificent relationship could they have if Keigo pretended that the monster Dabi was an angel who did no wrong? How happy could he be if he forgot about all the bad things that have happened? That will happen in the future?
If he wasn't so tired, Keigo'd be banging his head off the wall. So tired... too tired to lie.
3:11 am
bird brain <3 :
- yeah
- you hurt Tokoyami too
There's a pause, longer and sharper and nastier than before. One where Keigo can feel Touya's heart tripling in speed from miles away, tears prickling his turquoise eyes that are always supposed to be dry. Keigo is proud of himself for finally not crying; he swallows a hoarse pill of apathy that slides down his throat like a lump of chalk, burning him enough to melt the ice in his bloodstream.
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