The search for love

Chapter 1

It left a bad taste on my tongue... There she is, enjoying herself with another lover. I didn't even say anything or get mad to be honest. Nothing like that. It was a hurtful calmness I only felt once before. Almost like I quietly died, but on the inside. As empty as I felt already, I became even more empty once I saw her. "I can explain" she says, but I could not hear it. I did not want to hear the same excuse given to be before. I trusted her when I clearly should not have. So I left and never looked back...

Enough sadness and feeling sorry for what happened to my last relationship. You barely know me so, I will fix that. My name is as you may have guessed Jaiden. I am the author of this book and also, some might call me a decent person. People would describe me as kind, sweet, caring, calm, smart and somewhat of a dominant and overprotective person. I don't see the good in me so that might annoy people, can I help it though? Not really, but it is not the worst thing in the world. A little self-hatred has always helped progressing a little more in sports. My looks are overall good some might say: Mixed, Grey eyes, dark curly hair, muscular but has a belly and good style.

But then I ask myself: "If I am so great like people say, why does no one want me?". I had been single for a while at times and I have grown more and more lonely as time passed. I have gotten used to it but it is still not the nicest thing ever.

I believe there is an issue with how I act though in relationships. I am a very dominant and overprotective. I get jealous easily and I have this skill called: "being possesive". Regardless of me being that strong, dominant and protective boyfriend, I need a little loving too. Affirmations, comfort, all of that. I know its an unpopular opinion that guys need comfort too etc., but it is true. Having a safe space in your partners arms or with your partner is just as important. Todays society thinks otherwise though, men are left to die on their own if you aren't either rich, tall or got a specific look or behavior that harms more than is good or whatever todays people want. Not all of people are like that, but many sadly are.

This is how my journey starts...