All Too Well| DD Osama

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Desiree's POV
I stood at the door shocked and hurt all in one.

Ethan stood there infront of me.

He had food and candy and blankets. Everything he knew I'd want when I'm sad.

"Ethan what the hell do you want?" I said to him in a low tone.

"Desiree I had no idea that David would go up there and do that bullshit," Ethan ran his free hand through his hair. "He's fucking stupid for doing that to you. You'll always be my sister so lemme stay with you please."

I didn't have it in me. Any other time I'd fight and argue that I didn't believe him but I was too weak. Too fragile.

I needed someone here with me.

So I stepped to the side and allowed him to walk in the room. I close the door and followed behind him sitting on the couch and stared at the wall.

I couldn't do anything but sit and stare at the wall.

I was froze in time.

I wish I could go back in time and never meet him. But I can't wish that because without him I wouldn't have Delilah.

I felt a hot tear roll down my cheek and the spot on the couch sink next to me.

That night I cried in Ethan's arms, I was heart broken. The David I used to know would never do something like this to me.

Two Weeks Later
Delilah and I are getting ready to spend our  Fourth of July at her dad's house and while I was not as thrilled at she was I still wanted to go.

I hadn't been over there since the concert incident and I knew I couldn't spend the next few weeks avoiding him or his family.

"Mommy are you almost ready!" Delilah asked from her new room in our new New York apartment.

"Yes mi amor," I called back finishing up my hair and makeup just in time.

We left the house without Nai because happened to already be with Ethan.

As we drove to the home I was having second thoughts.

I didn't know if this Alabama girl would be there, if she and David were even still a thing. I couldn't come to terms with anything and tonight was going to be the night I had to.

As we pulled into a parking space I realized everyone was already here and when we walked in you could tell the larty had begun.

"Desiree Mi Amor!" David's mom called and I ran over to hug her. "I've missed you so much darling."

She smelled like a mix of cookies and mac n cheese. Her hugs were so warm and compasionate.

Everyone was hugging me and Delilah. They all talked about how boring is been around here then all of a sudden, he walked down the stairs. 

His hair was perfect,  his face was still as pretty as I remembered. The way he smiled,  the way he laughed.

It took me back to the night we met but I knew deep down in my heart I could never see him in that light again. 

"Daddy!" Delilah called running into his arms. I felt bad keeping them apart because of my hurt. 

All that little girl wanted was to embrace her father. She loved him with her whole heart even before she met him.

"Awe," He picked her up and gives her tightly. "I missed you so much munchkin."

When he finally looked up and saw me I swear I saw his heart breaking in his eyes. But I knew that he deserved to feel that way.

I was forced to so now its his turn.

He gave me a weak smile that I didn't return.

I turned my head and continued my conversation like he wasn't there...

like he was nothing.

I avoided David all day.

I didn't wanna be anywhere near him because I didn't wanna remeber the hurt.

He looked sad and desperate for me to even utter a word to him. He looked like his heart was breaking more and more with every glare.
                    Every eye-roll.
                                            Every cold shoulder.

I didn't wanna give him the satisfaction of me speaking to him after what he did.

And I was doing a damn good job at keeping my distance from him. That was until...

"Desiree can you talk to me?" David asked pulling me aside.

"You're talking to me right now David," I yanked my arm from him. I was trying my best to be mad.

"Please?" He had teary eyes and his voice was breaking. He made me feel horrible. I couldn't just leave him here on his own.

"Okay fine," I told him and he broke a small smile before pulling me into the front yard.

"I know what I did at the concert was stupid and I wish I could take it back. I know you'll never forgive me Desiree but I just need you to know I'm not messing with Alabama no more,"

"David I-"

"I just want us as a family and I know you probly think I'm fucking insane and don't want anything to do with me but god I miss sleeping next to you."

"David you fucking cheated on me, a weel after we gotten back together! A single fucking week David! And you expect me to accept you sappy ass speech? You begged me to let you back into to my life not the other way around! I cried myself to sleep every night! I wanted to do nothing but love you! I wanted our family together!"

"What the fuck do you want me to say Des? Its no excuse but I was scared! What if you were just planning on leaving me again with no explaination!"

"Bullshit David! Bullshit! I have you no reason to think I was just gonna leave in the middle of the night again!"

"You gave me no signs last time too! You said see you later, gave me a kiss goodbye and the next time I saw you was 4 weeks ago and I found out I had a daughter!"

"I didn't wanna leave David! I never planned on it! We were supposed to raise her together! And remeber this?!" I pulled the promise ring he have me out of my back pocket. "You promised me that you'd never cheat or lie or hurt me in anyway! Well you did all of them in one shot!"

"Like you weren't with anybody while you were gone!"

"Because I wasn't David! I was waiting for you! I only wanted you David! All I want is you David!"

I felt a hot tear roll down my cheek.

All I wanted was him and I've been trying to mask it with anger and hurt.

He's all I want.