Why is love so difficult?

Crush

All the way to Mich house was amazing, we were laughing and talking about what we did toghether all the summer

-here we are- Mich sais, opening the door and we enter the house

Mich:

Finally! I have time alone with Asha and that dickhead (that in front of everyone I have to call "Axel") is not around.

I've had a crush in Asha since forever and now that I know (thanks to Shara) that Axel has a crush on her, makes me want to break his nose, the good part is that Asha doesn't like him back (thanks god). Also, I saw Asha pretty sad since Shara told her about Axel crushing on her, so I invited her to my house so she relaxes a bit, also, I think she wanted to say something in the milkshake store, so she can talk to me about it.

After my mother talks to Asha like she didn't see her in ages (she saw her yesterday), I drag Asha to my room and we start doing the usual: talking a lot, getting beatted up by Asha in "Mario Party" (How is she so good at that?), laughing over a stupid think and then laughing about the other one laughing... I love her... but she will never like me back

-Asha...- I look at her with a more serious look

-Yeah? Is everything fine?

-I'm the one who should be asking- She looks other way so we don't make eye contact

-Hey Ash (I call her that when I see her sad, because that makes her chuckle a bit), about what happened in the milkshakes, whats wrong? - I nothice that my hand is touching hers and we both blush

-oh...- she moves her hand away- I'm fine, don't worry

-Asha- I say taking her chin so she looks at me and her face goes red- you know that you can tell me, right?

-I... wanted to tell you and Shara something... for so long... but it's hard- She sais with a trembling voice

I hug her and I pat her head, that makes her hug me back

-Hey, it's fine, you can take your time, no presure- Asha finds talking to people about herself and her problems really hard and I think that she doesn't talk this things to anyone else apart of me and Shara, and honestly, that makes me think that she trust us as much as we trust her, and that melts my heart

-Well... I'm... I'm not how you think I am, like, what I like

-Uh? What? I know what you like

-Wait, really? - she looks, surprise?

-Of cource I do!, you like books, drawing- she starts laughing, so i guess I wasn't getting it

-No!, not that Mich omg! - she starts laughing and I smile

-Then what do you mean?

-Well... I-I don't like... u-umm

-If it is about Axel, I'm kicking his ass

-No Mich- she smiles and she takes a deep breth- Well, you came out to us last year, like your sexuality, and I find that so brave- she takes both of my hands and I look at her, she is so adorable, her face looks scared and her hands are so warm, after a long silence, she makes eye contact with me

-so... I guess is my turn to come out to someone- she smiles a little and my eyes wide open, looking at her

-Asha, what are you

-I like girls-she sais, not letting me finish speaking, her hands squeeze mines a bit

-what?

-I know it's dumb and it shouldn't be this hard but- now I'm the one who doesn't let her finnish speak, I trow myself on top of her hugging and making us go to the ground

-Omg! Omg omg Asha!

-Mich! you scared me

-Am I the first one to know? – I say loudly and happily

-shh! You are waking someone up, and yes... you are- I hug her even harder

-Mich! – she wisperes

-Sorry! – I wispper back- I'm so happy for you- I say rubbing her back

-Oh Mich

-I really am

-Mich stop, it's cringy

-and I will be by your side all the time

-Mich omg

-and I love you so much

-You what? - I pull apart an I look at her, both of us blush again