Only You

-19-

" Where have you been? " Taehyung's voice echoed loudly in their apartment,

which boasted two bedrooms, two spare rooms that Taehyung had transformed into a library with a drink bar, other one was renovated into guest bedroom, a living space, and a spacious kitchen.

On the other hand, Jin hadn't seen the point in making changes to the apartment since they weren't planning to stay for that long.

The apartment was large enough for two people, and it would have been perfect for any other couple who got the chance to live here.

Taehyung and Jin lived here as a couple, too. At least, that's what everyone thought, so. Unfortunately, the reality behind their closed doors was far from what anyone would have expected.

" I thought we were on the same wavelength, Seokjin. We decided to have the child, and you said -- " Taehyung paused, searching for the right words to continue with, " You said you'd work on yourself and let me be there for you. "

" I am working on myself. The therapist suggested that I go out and have fun," Jin replied with a mocking laugh, clearly unimpressed by Taehyung's irritation.

" You should've informed me that you're leaving. I was - " Taehyung trailed off, deciding it was best not to voice his feelings, knowing that Jin would find a way to mock him.

" I don't owe you any information about my whereabouts, Taehyung. Get out of my way now," Jin demanded, pushing Taehyung aside.

" You stopped me from calling Jimin here last night, and I complied. You threw a tantrum, and I stayed calm. The next morning, you leave and deliberately ignore all my calls. That baby inside you is mine as well, so as long as you're carrying it, be considerate of me too," Taehyung urged.

" I'll repeat it again, Taehyung. Baby or not, you don't get to control me. I decided to keep it. And what are you going to do if I don't listen? Hit me? Go to my dad and cry about this? Whining like you are doing right now? Do so. I don't care about you. The therapy you suggested to me? How about you get yourself a doctor too? You're so possessive, just like my dad. All of you alphas are the same. I'm tired of us fighting. We're not even that close for us to be fighting all the time," Jin's voice reverberated throughout their apartment, filling the empty spaces with tension, " Why did it have to be you? Why, just why? You're a terrible person, "

Taehyung attempted to approach Jin, taking small steps, " Please, I know you're struggling. I know it's hard. Let me help you. I promise I'll never ask for anything in return. Just let me be there for you, "

Jin's breath quickened, and he struggled to take in air. His hands became clammy, and Taehyung's words felt overwhelming. He couldn't believe Taehyung was saying all of this instead of saying harsh words to him in return.

Suddenly, Jin began to cry, his words getting cut short due to his difficulty in breathing, " I'm afraid you'll leave too, Taehyung, i can not get close to you. I am not healthy either. You saw my other day, right? Does that not scare you? " he said in between sobs, " I'm afraid you're asking too much of me. I can't let you in. I'm sorry. "

Taehyung realized he had pushed too hard. He comes forward to hold Jin tightly in his arms, attempting to calm him, " Hey, breathe, calm down. Take a deep breath."

" You hated my scent. You said I was disgusting, a whore, and didn't know how to act, You left me alone at night after our reception, then made me kneel for hours, and because of you, my dad came to hit me," Jin whimpered, struggling to breathe, " You can't expect me to let you in. You're not nice, not nice, not nice," Jin repeated, his body shaking uncontrollably.

" I'm sorry, please. I really am. I was so wrong. Forgive me, please calm down. I'll never hurt you ever again," Taehyung begged, doing his best to soothe Jin, who continued to tremble and cry.

" No, you'll leave, I can't let you in. I can't, please, don't hit me, don't please, "

Taehyung tried to hold Jin as he repeated his fears and anxieties,
" Please stop shaking, Seokjin. It's fine, honey. No one is leaving. I'm not. I'll not hit you, never, okay? "

" You will eventually, Jimin did too. He said he'll stay by my side, but he blocked me, all of you lie, " he sobs harder,

" I'm never leaving; I promise you, Seokjin. I'm never leaving your side, I will make you doing better by yourself on your own, never leaving you alone, okay? Please stop crying," Taehyung gently rubbed Jin's back, trying to comfort him. He combed his fingers through Jin's hair and suggested, " Let's get up now, okay? Did you eat?"

Seokjin nodded in reply, his face still buried in Taehyung's chest, his shirt soaked from his tears.

" Do you want to take a bath?" Taehyung suggested, hoping it might help Jin recover from his panic attack.

" No, I just want to sleep," Jin mumbled, snuggling further into Taehyung's chest. The soothing scent was beginning to calm his nerves.

" Alright, we'll go to sleep, okay? Let's get you hydrated first, and I need you to take deep breaths for me, okay? " Taehyung lifted Jin into his arms, realizing it might make him feel more comfortable.

Taehyung led Jin to the kitchen and carefully opened a water bottle. He held it to Jin's lips, encouraging him to drink. Afterward, he carried Jin to their bedroom and laid him down gently. Jin clung to Taehyung, and his breath remained unsteady.

Despite Taehyung's intention to stay awake in case Jin needed him, he eventually fell asleep. He didn't want to, but his exhaustion got the better of him.

Fortunately, Jin didn't wake up during the night. He was intoxicated by Taehyung's scent, which seemed to bring him a sense of security and comfort, allowing him to sleep peacefully.

Just a week ago, Jin had told him he appreciated his kind gesture and acknowledged them, but in reality, Jin was still unsure of letting Taehyung help him. He realized that if he wanted to help Jin, he had a long, tough road ahead.