Sweet 17. | jack hughes

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it was 9 o'clock pm, I have a bio exam to study for and I have to get up at 8am tomorrow for hockey practice. I was laying in my bed while - give you the world - by Steve lacy playing on my playlist. I was in one of the funks, where your so happy but so sad at the same time, it's like being zen but not. I hate it, I hate this feeling, I feel so bad about what I did to Jack. I wish I could just take everything back and redo things. See what I mean when I said I can't do relationships because all I do is feel guilty about everything or one little thing I do rots my heart. I mean I like max, alot but jack, jack. There's things about him that's so different from everything and everyone. I sat up and looked at nova, thinking About what I should do, I got up and headed to the kitchen and grabbed fruit snacks and gummy's and candy and headed up to my room where I threw everything on my rug. I sat down and grabbed my backpack and took all of my study stuff out and placed all of it in-front of me and got to studying. After almost 2 hours I finished, after listing all of the cells and organs and parts of the human body I got up and cleaned up my room, after I got out of the shower I picked out a white tank top and blue and white shorts with white socks, I brushed through my hair and did my skin care. I let nova outside to use the bathroom room, after I grabbed some water and headed upstairs. Not long after I get settled in my bed, I heard something taping my window which made nova go crazy. I new what this meant, it was Jack. I opened my window up. "Jack" "hey uh, can I come in?" He said. Without saying anything I moved so I could let him in. "Look mags I'm sorry I've been a asshole about this whole thing and I'm really really sorry, but I can't act like I don't miss you." He said. "Jack you're not the one who need to be apologizing, I am. I knew the party was you're idea and I blow everyone off especially you for max, and I know I said some messed up stuff when we where In you're room and I'm sorry I said stuff about me and max I new it would make you mad and it was selfish of me and I'm just really sorry, and don't get mad and Trevor for telling me this he was just trying to look out for you and help you out but he told me why you've been acting like this and I completely understand why you view things this way and I was just confused, I mean you where talking to Jessica and Abby and I brought that up with Trevor and he told me that you just don't want me to get hurt and thank you Jack, thank you for looking out for me but, I just don't know what im doing I mean im not good-." "With relationships I understand mags" he said hugging me, he knew I was overwhelmed, I began to tear up a little, I felt so bad about the whole thing but at the same time I didn't understand why I felt the way I felt.
"Hey what if we watch a funny movie in you're bed with some popcorn? How does that sound?" He said pulling away from the hug and wiping my tears. "That sounds good" I said with a smile. "Good, I got the popcorn pick a good movie maggie" he said runing downstairs, I jumped into my bed as I picked a good movie to watch, i picked fifty shades of grey, ok I know it's a horny ass movie but it's one of my favorite dark romance movies. Ok I'm not picking that what about all the bright places it's like actually my favorite movie. Jack came back and got comfortable as we shared popcorn and the movie started. Halfway through the movie we paused it so Jack could use the restroom and I went downstairs to clean the bowl we used for the popcorn. After we went back to watching the movie, I loved this movie but it made me cry a few time so as I was crying Jack was laughing at me. "Are you really crying over this?" He said laughing, "Jack that is so sad stop laughing at me" I said as I pushed his shoulder, we connected eyes, it was tense, tears where still falling down my face but I was showing no emotion, he placed his hand on my cheek and began to wipe my tears off, we where inches apart when I placed my hand on the back of his neck, we both pulled each other in for a kiss. it started to get tense when I pulled back just a little making our four heads still touch, "Jack I'm really sorry" I said. "Maggie don't be sorry, I mean really don't be sorry ok? Things happen people do things because of they way that they feel, because that's there feelings, and people get mad but that's how they feel" he said. I gave him one small soft kiss, it was almost like a thank you kiss. Soft. We continued to watch the movie when I started to get tired like really really tired.

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the movie only had 10 minutes left and I was starting to get a little tired, Maggie feel asleep on my chest, I made sure her and my phone was plugged in for tomorrow because we both have early practice, I turned the tv off and wrapped my arms around her and began to head to sleep.
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