Bill Kaulitz (Tokio Hotel) Smut & Fluff

Don't Jump (Fluff)

Hiiii people, this story is a request from @home202788 so no criticism, you don't like it ? Just shut up and don't read it :) Enjoy, btw !TW! suicide 

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—— Bill's POV ——

I had been dating y/n for a while now, she was my ray of sunlight, always smiling, always happy, always just herself without caring what others thought ! She was incredibly brave and beautiful.. she was all I ever prayed for, an angel afalling from the sky just for me. She was just perfect, the girl I've always been looking for. I was now in the lounge with tom, the show had just ended and y/n was at home, she surprisingly wasn't answering any of my text or calls, tom had always told me he felt like something was wrong with her.

T : let me guess, no answer ?

He snickered raising an eyebrow at me

B : None, I'm seriously getting worried now... it's not usual from her

T : Bill I tell you, she isn't stable, something is wrong with her and you should seriously get home to her right now to see what's wrong !

I stood up, he was right... I needed to go see her, I said bye to the crew and took an uber home

—— Y/n's POV ——

It was too much to take, I was now here, sitting on the floor of our bathroom.. don't get me wrong bill is an amazing boyfriend... He's the best... but I couldn't take it anymore. School was getting too much, my parents, my past... everything just kept flooding back and bill was starting to argue with me more and be less home which made it clear to me he didn't love me anymore. I took this blade in between my index and thumb, as I trace a first sort of "try line" to see if It was sharp enough... and oh it was... I started to trace this line..

? : Y/N !!!

—— Bill's POV ——

As I got home the house was silent, I went to our room and she wasn't there... that's when I heard a little wince coming from the bathroom.. I opened the door and my heart shattered

B : YN !!!!

I rushed taking this blade out of her hand, what was in her mind to do such a thing !! I threw the blade in the sink as she started crying. My heart sunk... how could I've been this blind... of course she wasn't okay... Tom knew about it but I always refused to believe him. How much of an idiot am I to do such a thing to let her down like this ! Gosh I'm so stupid.. I looked at her, of course I was furious, she was crying begging me to stay..

Y/n : Please... bill please I'm so sorry.. please don't go please...

She cried and cried... of course tears rushed to my eyes... her wrist has a cut and another half done one that seemed way deeper... I was just in time. I opened the drawer and took out a first aid kit. I sat down next to her taking her wrist in my hand.

B : it might burn a little

I said grabbing the tubing alcohol to disinfect the cuts, I took a cotton, poured some on and started to press in on the cut. She let out a whimper from the pain as she laid her head on my shoulder crying. I put some bandage onto her wrist to protect the cuts and make sure that it wasn't going to get her to bleed out. I placed the first aid kit back as she continued to cry on my shoulder. I turned to her

B : Why... I.. I want to understand where I went wrong for you to go to this kind of ideas.. you could've killed yourself

Y/n : I.. I know...

Her voice cracked, something was really wrong.. deep inside of me I felt like I hadn't been enough for her and that she needed more... that she needed more from our relation

Y/n : I'm so sorry bill.. please forgive me... don't leave me

She grabbed onto my shirt, I held her

B : I won't leave... I just want to know why ?

She looked up to my eyes and sight

Y/n : Life... everything was getting harder.... My past was coming back for me.. and you ...

Me...? My heart shattered even more, now into millions of pieces... I was one of the reason my girlfriend...the gold piece I've loved for forever.... Wanted to end it ?

Y/n : You were starting to get distant... always at work... you use to invite me to tour with you guys now I never get to come and see you perform... you leave early..come home late... we argue more...Bill your the reason I wanted to start a new life in the first place...and now I feel like your leaving me

I grabbed her and sat her on my laps, I took her in my arms and kissed her forehead

B : Oh darling of course not... im so sorry that's how you felt things... but it definitely isn't the goal or anything like that.. I love you more then anything in life.. you're the most important thing in my life...Your like gold to me princess. I would never want to leave you on the side.. I've been very stressed with the new tour, like tomorrow night were in Berlin... and... would you like to come with us ?

I never knew she felt that way.. she was always such a joyful girl with this big smile... how did tom see it and I didn't.

Y/n : Really ? You actually want me to come ?

She asked with a lust of hope in her eyes, she did want to come... I always thought she was bored coming on tour with us

B : Of course darling, look how about we take it easy tonight, maybe we could watch a movie.. or I could sing you a song... under the blankets.. have you ever eaten today ?

I asked as she shook her head no looking down

B : Oh honey... how am I this blind... how about we order Italian ? And we'll prep your bags for tour tomorrow morning before we leave.. tonight is all about us.. I'm even gonna

I took out my phone, turned the sound off

B : that way, no call or texts can bother us

She caressed my cheek and started to scratch my hair... she knew how much I loved her... I wanted to prove it to her, she deserved the entire world... everything... I just wanted her to know that I will always be here, and if I can't hold her back I'll jump for her