Adopted By Elizabeth Olsen]

11/scars

BELLE

FLASHBACK:

I stopped being that innocent girl after Mark stole my innocence with all the things he did to me, the kisses, the caresses, the whispers...

I stopped smiling after the abuse I constantly suffered from him. I had changed a lot in just a few days, my appetite had decreased from one day to the next and I hardly slept, also the drastic changes in mood, including fear and guilt, he always told me that I was << one more whore that provocated him >>

I believed him, I called myself "whore" every day, while cutting myself I remembered all the things he said to me

<< nobody will ever love you»
Cut

« gifted whore »
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« skinny bitch »
Cut

<< that's why your dad leave you »
Cuy

So until the whole floor is filled with my cold, my disgusting and dirty blood, I deserved it, I don't know how I could stand it so as not to kill myself, I wanted to live

but i didn't deserve it

POV LIZZIE:

I couldn't believe what she had seen, her entire body, hes beautiful and delicate body, full of scars, irreparable scars

Why did she do that to herself?

Why didn't she tell me?

Wasn't I good enough?

Should I seek professional help?

she was suffering and i never realized it, i'm so dumb

[...]

I woke up with that helpless little being hugging me, it looked so cute

How could anyone hurt her

I shook her Shoulder carefully to wake her up"Hey kiddo it's time to wake up"I whispered softly in her ear

"Mhh it's very early" she complain and continued sleeping

"It's 11am in the morning"i laughed"Okay, 15 more minutes, but if i came back and you're still asleep, there will be consequences" I stroked her head and got out of bed

"Where are you going?" She asked grabbing my hand

"I have things to do" I replied

"Stay with me, please"She made a puppy face

" i Can't..."

"Yes you can, you just don't want to"She became sad and turned around

"whimsical"I lay on the bed"Happy now?"She nodded and rested her head on my chest

"I love you..." She murmured.

"What did you say?" I asked pretending I didn't hear.

"No-nothing"

"What did you say kiddo?"I laughed and started tickling her neck

"Lizzieee sto-stopp"she begged in laughs and little cries

"No until you tell me what you said" I sang while continuing

"¡I said I love you!" She exclaim and I stopped my tickles

"I'm sorry I didn't want to, it came out of nowhere "She hid her face in my neck

"Hey, get out of there"I whispered and she came off my neck"I don't want you to apologize, never"

"Sorry," she said innocently and I laughed.

"I love you too..."I kissed her cheek

"Ewww"she complained

"You love them, I know it"I kissed her again and hugged her

"Yes, i do..." She whisper

[...]

After a while in bed we got up and went to have breakfast/lunch. Now we are sitting on the coach, separated from each other, she at one corner, me at the other.

She was very quiet, We still haven't talked about what happened last night

Self harm...

"Can we talk about last night?" I asked.

"I... sorry, I didn't want to make you cry" He apologized with his head bowed

"I don't want you to apologize, I told you a thousand times"

"So- Fine

"Why do you do that to yourself?" I asked her, she kept her head down. " She sighed and raised her head.

"Last year when I moved with Mark, he started touching me and calling me ugly things, like 'whore', that no one would ever love me, among other things," she confessed while playing with her fingers. "I know you already know, but I'll tell you why he did that, he hit me, he did it because I wanted to defend myself" She paused and lowered her head"And one-one day he got tired and he-he grabbed me and took me to his-his room and he-he-" her broken voice became a desperate cry

I hugged her carefully, she hid her face in my neck as she always does "Everything will be fine my little heart" I tried to calm her while stroking her back

"He raped me"she confessed through tears, my heart broke, I couldn't help but let desperate tears flow from my eyes, the girl who made me happy, had been through all this and never wanted to tell me.

She cried for a few minutes on my neck while I stroked her head and whispered in her ear. She let go of my neck and wiped her tears with her shirt sleeves.

"Are you better?" I asked while kissing her little head

"I think so, thanks" she replied as she tried to get away from me

"You do not have to thank me"

"But you help me... and a lot, last night it was because" she paused "I didn't want it to be my birthday and I didn't want to be a burden to you and all the things that Mark told me came back to me" she confesses

"My little heart" I put my hands on her face "You will never be a burden, neither for me nor for anyone" I kissed her face repeatedly and she laughed trying to escape

"I love you" she murmured.

I looked at her disapprovingly. "Do you want me to start tickling you again?" I threatened as I moved my fingers.

"I love you," she repeated, but now out loud.

"That's better" I joked "I love you too and I can't wait for tomorrow, for your special day" I sang happy

"You will be unbearable"

"Yes, I will"

"I forgot to ask you, can I go out with Lev and Maddie tomorrow?"She asked

"Of course, you wouldn't have to ask my permission" I replied

"You are supposed to be my legal guardian, so I have an obligation to ask, because if something happens to me it will be your responsibility...

"You're right, letting me know is enough, I would never say no, unless I just want you for myself and I don't want you to go out."

"In that case I would stay before anything"

"Come here"I invited her to lie next to me, she accepted and snuggled in my lap "Belle" I called her and she looked at me"Promise me that when you feel the urge or the desire to do it, you will tell me"

"I promise"she hide his face in my neck" I love you..."I whisper

"I love you more my darling" I whispered and kissed her head.

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