Can we go through this?

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(7 months together)

POV. Lando

"Have you thought about it yet?" Charles asks, turning over onto his stomach. He is now half lying down on Max and he rubs Max's chest.

I'm at the computer, because I have to arrange some things for Quadrant.

"Charles." Max sighs and I bite my lip. I feel the nervous feeling back in my stomach.

Charles, Max and I have been in a relationship for seven months now. Nobody knows. Not our family, not our friends, not anyone. Max is not ready yet, he is afraid to tell. 4 months ago Max won his first championship. Because the battle between him and Lewis was so intense, we decided not to tell anyone, so that Max could focus on that for now. Charles and I were able to help Max through it very well. We spent a lot of time together in the hotel rooms and slept separately the night before the race. The days before we could sleep together. Things could be different with the races and that's why we decided not to sleep together the night before the race unless someone really needs it.

Only we are now three months further and no one knows yet. I'd like to tell my family, introduce them to them. Even though they know Max and Charles, I want to introduce them as my boyfriends.

But Max is still afraid of the reactions. We're in a safe bubble right now and I understand him, but it's also tough. If George and Alex want to meet and I drop out, they'll have their questions. I've often told them I can't. Of course they have questions. Charles's friends have questions, Max's friends, our families. But I don't want to push him, Max has enough pressure on him from Red Bull. In addition, Charles has it too. Those two have the championship fight together. They have to perform under high pressure.

And coming out is hard. It's difficult. You want to tell everyone but it's scary at the same time.

"I know Max, but it's getting harder and harder. Pierre asked me straight to my face yesterday if I still trusted him since I have secrets for him. It's no longer possible Max." "But if everyone finds out then-" "No, only the people we want. Those people will not tell anyone if we don't want them to. Max we don't have to come out right away in front of the whole fucking world. God, I am not even ready for that." says Charles. "You know what my father's reaction can be Charles. If he hurts you I will never forgive myself." "But you don't have to be afraid of that sweetie." "Understand me Charles." "I understand you, I really do. Otherwise I wouldn't have waited over a half a year Max. But it's getting harder and harder. I love you both so incredibly much. Understand me too." "I understand and I want to tell some people, but I'm afraid for my father, Christian and Helmut." "But I'm not asking for the teams Max. I'm asking for friends. Even if you don't tell Jos anything, you can tell your mother something. If you say he shouldn't know anything, she won't say anything." "And when it comes out the whole family knows when he didn't... No, sorry Charles." he says and Charles sighs.

I bite my lip while being silent all the time. I have a document in front of me that I need to read, but I didn't read anything. I pretended to be reading. There is a tense atmosphere when it comes to this topic, I hate it.

"I'm going to make dinner." announces Charles and he gets up and walks away. I watch him walk out of the room and I bite my lip and I look back at the computer to continue reading.

In the upcoming overview you can read the edition of the last months and-

I read and I stop when I feel two hands on my shoulder. "Are you going to stop soon Sweetie? You've been on the computer for the whole day, you need to give yourself some rest." "Yeah, almost done. Just a few more documents." "No Lan. You've been working since the morning." "I have to finish it Max." I mumble. He puts his arms around me and he kisses my cheek. "You have lost concentration Love." "I have not." I lie. "You have, because you close your eyes when you're reading and you tap your fingers on the desk. You're not focused anymore, because then you're that." he says and I sigh and I look at him. "You know me too well." I say and he chuckles and lets go of me. "Come on, close everything. You still have two days off. Don't do everything in one day if you don't have to." "But then I have the other daya off." "But you also don't want to make mistakes. And maybe you'll finish it tomorrow. Come, turn off the computer." "Okay." I say and I close all documents. I turn off my computer and get up.