Can we go through this?

#3

Pov. Lando

The day passed quickly after that. Daniel never left my side for a second. He made me laugh again and I could joke along with him. For a moment I didn't even think about everything.

Later in the day I was back at the hotel. I decided to change and pack my golf gear. I went to the nearest gold corse and was there for a few hours. Then I went to the hotel and there I showered and changed. I lay in bed later and I look around on my phone. I scroll through Instagram and I went through the stories. I stopped when I came across a picture of George, Charles and Alex. I look at the name and I see Charles's name. The three of them were out for dinner.

That's why George didn't have time.

But they hadn't invited me either... The four of us often went out for dinner. If possible every race or in Monaco.

But of course they didn't invite me, all three of them are mad at me.

I sigh and I put my phone away again. Enough for today. I turned off all the lights and I tried to fall asleep, but I couldn't. All that I could think about is how I can bring everything back as it was. I want to talk to them, I want to spent time with them again. I miss them. It feels like they are so far away from me and that feeling kills me.

In the middle of the night I had made two notes in their own language.

Het spijt mij zo. Ik hou van je

You suis desolé. Je t'aime

I couldn't get in touch with them now, but I want to give them this. How? No idea. Maybe I'll stop them when I see them in the media or in the pits. I can't enter their drivers room.

I'll see if I see them.

The notes were in my pocket the entire time we were on the track. I was now in the TV media pen. Max was standing next to me doing an interview and I felt nervous. I was so close to him. The urge is there to grab his hand and never let it go.

Weren't the notes stupid? What if they think it's stupid?

This was my last interview and we are walking out of the media pen. But I couldn't leave. "I want to wait a little longer." I say to Sam. "Why? You have a meeting soon." "Yes, but I still have something to give to Max." "Oke, that's fine." he says and I bring my hand to my mouth and bite my nail. I look in the media pen and I stare at Max. He was still talking to viaplay. I couldn't understand anything since he spoke Dutch. I take a note from my pocket and check if it is the Dutch version. When I see that I have the right one I close it and keep my hand closed. When Max is finished he walks this way. I feel my heart start beating faster

Do I dare?

Max looks at me and I walk forward to grab his arm so he can't leave. "Max." I say softly. I look to the side where my media person and his are a bit further for our privacy. "Not now, not here." says Max. I look him in the eye. "I only have this." I say and I put the note in his hands. "Open up when you're alone." I say and he nods softly. "Okay." he says softly and I let go of his wrist. He walks away and I bite my lip and walk away too. "Everything okay?" asks Sam and I put on a smile and I nod. We walk to the garage and I have to go straight to the meeting.

There was enough to discuss, so we sat there for a long time. After the meeting I sit outside on a box hoping to see Charles. Jon asked if I wanted dinner already, but I declined. I told him I'll get something from the hotel later. I didn't want to worry him. I didn't want to tell him about the stomach ache I suddenly felt during the meeting. I have cramps and it's very rumbling inside. The feeling of vomiting comes and goes.

"Come on, I've packed your things." says Jon and I frown at him. "Because?" "We're going to the hotel." "I'm waiting for someone." "It's been a long day Lan." he says and I bite my lip and I look at Ferrari's garage where no Charles is to be seen. "Are you waiting for Carlos?" "What? No. Why should I wait for Carlos?" "Because you look at Ferrari." "I'm not waiting for anyone from Ferrari." I lie. "Then who are you waiting for?" "He's coming soon. Go to the hotel." "We went with one car Lan." I sigh. "That's true." I say. "Forgot." I say afterwards. "Are you going out to dinner with someone?" "No." I say. "Then why are you waiting for that person?" "I have need to give him something." "Can't you go to his room?" "Teams see me coming." I say. "Then we go to the hotel. Come on." I sigh and nod. "Okay." I say softly and I get off the box. I take my bag from him and we walk out of the pedock.